It's my third week of internship.
I got into an oil and gas company, which was one of the top8 list I had.


It is a dream come true, I have to say.
Getting in one of the top companies is my goal, and it turned out being a very good one training interns too.
I got to do presentation, I need to learn about the whole company. I was spending a lot of my time talking to engineers in different disciplines. Everyone was doing very professional works, and everyone is just very enthusiast in solving problems. When I asked about their disciplines, they replied me immediately and made me meet them, introducing me and taught me so many things about the upstream field, showing me projects they are working on and some just spent more than an hour just to make me familiar.
Other than that, I have a technical task to work on. I have a supervisor and he asked me to do research on two technologies and come out with a report for him. I thought it was just a random topic until one morning I was suddenly asked to join a meeting with vendors from the outside, with people from Norway and the UK, then I realized it is for a project they are working on.
It felt magical. I did not expect myself doing something such important, and I am so glad I was given the chance.


The company is also amazing in its working culture.
We have very flexible working time: in and out at whenever time, as long as we finish 40 hours work a week. There was one Friday I left at 12pm and went out to meet my friend. Weekend felt like three days!
On my first day to work, I got my own desk, my monitor, a huge set of stationaries, and my own desk phone (which I did not expect that I actually used it quite a lot alrdy HAHA)
The people here are also very helpful, very caring and always ready to teach. There was a few times where I bumped into people in the pantry or the washroom, and people just walked up to greet me "Are you the new intern?" or "Are you Siah Qi?" and started to ask things about me.
They are always helpful in teaching me useful things, that is useful in the future. From what information and knowledge I get to learn about the upstream oil and guess field, to what companies that I can apply, and even interview tips for the future. There was one day where I left home late and someone just walked to my desk and taught me to access the company's library for more things I can read on when I'm free. Thinking that they have so many things to work on, and they still spend time caring and teaching me, I just can't be more grateful!


Seeing stories posted on my ig, a lot of people came to ask about my company.
Funny enough is that the company is currently having only me as the intern coming in at this time, and the pay is quite okay comparing to the allowance the other companies offer me.
Going around the company I still get questions like "Do you know someone in the company to get a placement here?" and that makes me more grateful for getting this offer! I know I have to work even harder to reach theirs and my expectation.


The company is currently working on new projects, and seeing people so passionate working everyday makes me love more about what I am learning and I somehow just can't wait to start working (although I still prefer studying and being stress free financially lol).


Imagine living in a big city I always hope for, staying with Zoe and going to work together, taking care of each other. She is working very hard for her job right now, working so much more hours than I do, and even spend her evenings at home working. Seeing her being so passionate and work so hard for her job is just so inspiring everyday!
I will definitely miss the drives back home everyday, where we share on what we are currently doing about our job, although it is two different worlds, it feels amazing listening to stories and also how different we are.
Also the last time we were staying together for a long period was 5 years ago, where I was sitting for my PMR and she was sitting for SPM. We spent so much time supporting each other, studying together and went through so much together too at that time. 5 years later, it feels amazing that both of us started working, being part of the adult society, still as close.
This is definitely something we couldn't imagine 5 years ago. I am also very glad it is Zoe who is the one together with me, motivating and inspiring me with what she is doing. I love LOVE looooove how we are growing and becoming a better person together <3 (and Bii too, I need to mention her more, she is even amazing <33333

Little things

The little things that made this year warm.
It's a year I met so many good and nice people in life, probably just because a little change in mindset to help and give than to take. Amazing things happened after that and my life suddenly became warm.

I remember I started this year in Korea, when it is so cold in a city that I don't speak the language, by myself with a lot of luggage, a girl that was trying to get out of her comfort zone.
It was just before going on my flight from KL, I texted a friend that I know who is Korean, and she immediately says that she can go around with me a few days and asked me to stay at her place.
I was so shocked by that time as she replied without even thinking. That night, her dad drove around 2 hours to the airport in another state to fetch me almost midnight, and I had a really warm night for my first day in Korea.
The next day we went around and count down together with a huge crowds, trying to keep each other warm and wishing people around Happy New Year. Although I don't know how to say it in Korean, and just blankly following what other says, it was so cold that night, but my heart was so warm.

After that I moved to a girl's hostel where I stayed in a bunk bed in a room of eight.
I was not expecting anything, just hope time flies by faster before I can go to a better house.
It was a very small room where we don't even have space to open up our luggage. In that small room there's seven other girls some travel together some traveled alone.
I remember I was so shy and was with my bed curtain closed all the time.
A girl approached me with strawberries she bought, and another girl gave me a banana milk too. From then I started knowing them, some are here for a concert, a girl (which I now still keep in touch) was here from US to teach English, everyone was alone but not but not lonely.

Time in Daegu was great. Maybe it's a small city and the people there are all so warm.
They actually don't need to keep us accompanied during the free time, but despite having a lot of homework to catch up or part time to work, they spent all of their free time bringing us to places we want to go. I still remember that night where we had to say goodbye, we went for dinner and two friends left for tuition. We continues to play bowling until 11pm, and another guy was going for tuition after that at that time.
Although they are younger than me, they thought me a lot more and was much more mature than I am.

I then traveled to GangNeung for winter Olympics where I stay in a room with another Japanese lady who is also a fan of Yuzuru.
She is at the age older than my grandma, which she started to follow figure skating games since she retired. She don't have any social media account, not even good using the internet, but she managed to get around the world, with the help of others to get a flight tix or a game tix, even better than I do.
She was following me the whole time when we went, and was telling my lots of stories, I brought her to random places I want to visit, even introduced her to VR games.

Other than that I met so many people travelling around purely because of the games in that hostel. They shared a lot of stories that makes me realized how big this world is and how small I am, and also how big I can dream and achieve too.
I promised myself I have to work much harder in the future, to see the world myself, to meet more people, hear more stories, and also to share the journey to inspire more people, that we can do more than what we think.
I remembered that night leaving GangNeung, the hostel lady even sent me out on the taxi and waved me goodbye. I was so touched by that time.

This is what all happened during my journey in Korea.
A country that I don't speak the language.
A country that I traveled alone by myself.
A country that made me feel so warm despite all hardships.

I then met amazing friends in Miri again, then throughout my trip in Europe for the whole month, and even more amazing people in Perth.

Leaving Perth in three days, although a lot of friends left already. I still feel so sad to leave.
I will not forget random road trips we had, random jogging session, cooking at my house, out for good food after assignments and tests, way to groceries, exploring the campus and all the weird jokes we have.
Also not to forget the Erika house gang, always not forgetting me every time there's good food or going places, always make sure I'm not alone when everyone left. I will miss nights playing board games or simply chatting, I will miss every single one of you. TT

One more month left for 2018, where I have to start a life in another country. Can't believe it's time to fake adult and do professional things. I am not sure whether I am ready, but I hope things will be smooth for me <3

Climb higher, but appreciate.

I remember before changing my blog quote to "Appreciate the little things in life", it used to be "Climb higher, not so the world can see you, but so you can see the world".

I was having my PPE lecture and the class was around 30 students, unlike back in Malaysia, students here are more likely to share their opinions during class.
There was this time when the lecturer asked the class who had done their vacation internship and there were around 5 students who raised their hands, followed by sharing what they did in their internship. Their sharing makes me felt more like what I'm currently studying sounds much more practical, and they gave me the feeling that they are studying not to pass, but to apply it in real life.

I don't know whether it is my Asian kiasu genes working, or it's just the reality dawned on me, I felt that I am so left back. I am being content by able to get good grades, able to do things I like and able to grab opportunities, but I felt still so behind.

This post might be just a reminder for myself, to always be content, but at the same time, aim higher and do more, work harder. I might be good, but I am just not good enough.

I started to think back what I have done during my free time. Maybe I did some volunteering jobs and some exchange program, working on something that I called "interested in". I think I learnt it the hard way, that even though I want to work on more education projects, but everything I can do is just so little, and maybe I should climb higher, becoming stronger and then focus on it.

I might be doing my internship at the end of this year. Back in yesterday I was still so unmotivated to work on it, it felt like a burden to look for internships, and I was still thinking: growing up sucks HAHH
But definitely not today, after some short sharing sessions, it makes the work life sounds so interesting, and this kinda motivated me!

Climb higher, but appreciate. 

Landed and slowly starting the semester

Leaving home was kinda rushed.

Mom was running places with me and sent me to the airport even though she's not feeling well.

The scene from my second flight was 100%, a huge yellow moon so low so huge and so clear.

It was a looong flight, with a loooong sleep and I landed late at night, feeling a little too cold, tired, sleepy and a little scary.
Safely made my way to home, had a hot shower, and went to a little chilly bed with my Koda.

First day here was trying to settle down, I tried to went around a bit, got my SIMcard and bought groceries.
Before I remember I have to go around the campus, I was already with two hands full off bags of groceries LOL
So I ended up not going a lot of places, stayed at home, didn't really know what to do HAHH

Second day here was GREATTTTT.
I got to go out with my friend's friends to town, as they were on a vacation here, I got to go touristy places in Perth!

We first dropped by the campus for Open Day, got a little familiar with the environment. Spot ARMY on campus too!

We then went all the way to the city, dropped off at Elizabeth Quay, took some pictures and walked all the way to Crown Perth.

Accidentally met Hossein which I knew him back in Miri, so we went around the town together too!

Had Honey Creme's ice cream and grapefruite juice. The ice cream was soooo good, insta worthy too!
We then went to UWA to go around, which we passed by the Blue Boat House which is in the middle of nowhere.

Being touristy in another university.

Gang of the day!

We then walked all the way to King's Park for the sunset. It was a long journey as what we only had was Google Maps. We did not get to catch the sunset but the view was amazingggg.

That night we rushed back to town for Korean BBQ for dinner as a long queue was expected.

After dinner, we then suddenly decided to have soju, 3bottles for 7 of us HAHA
Brings back my memories back in Korea, I miss every single one I met in Korea!!
Got a little dipsy as not everyone is good at drinking, we then went to Elizabeth Quay again for the night view. It was so cold and was raining a little so we had the whole place.

First day of school was a little lonely, I went to open my bank account and got my SMARTrider card, went around the campus and I was so bad at direction I spent 30mins to find my class LOL The future me will laugh at my old self XD

Dinner was cooking at home with Cindy.
We accidentally cooked too much LOL

Second day was an early morning 8am class. It was so cold in the morning, such nice weather to sleep I dozed a few times during lecture.

Got to meet up with an old friend after class too.
He showed me around, and we got good food and had a great talk.
Thanks for the meal too!

This kinda sums up the few days after being here in Perth.
Still did not get to make a lot of friends yet, and still getting lost on campus.
Still a little free now, and still finding things to do!

It's getting busier soon I guess!
Will try to keep updating!!

A new life chapter, in Perth

It still feels so surreal, that I am going to do this semester in Perth.

I keep wondering do I deserve all this opportunities, as I don’t think I am good enough. I’m afraid I’ll lose something after gaining so so much.

The past semester break was great, amazingly great. I went to places, living the life. I went back home too, enjoy all the small little happiness with people I love around me.

It’s hard too, I realize, to not lose yourself after so many criticism.

Yesterday was Zoe’s call ceremony at Middle Temple, now she’s officially a barrister. My all time study partner, my inspiration and my motivation now graduated and starting to work!! I miss those days we burn the midnight oil to study for PMR and SPM together, with Jpop and Kpop idols being our motivation all time. We do argue a lot but I’m glad in the end only those lovely memories remain.

This morning I went to a temple near our house, we pray for everything to be smooth for us and everyone to always stay healthy. I really don’t wish for more as I felt I have more than enough, I am having a lot of things that I don’t really think I deserve. For the family to be healthy and things to be smooth is all I wish for.

We then went for last minute shopping and rushed home to pack before rushing to the airport.

It’s amazing how this blog sees me from a little girl knowing nothing, until her first trip alone, travelling to places, and now being a little grown up, knew more things and starting to study abroad. It still feels the same though, I am still afraid of a lot of things, but I am also brave enough to face it.

I still enjoy having life changes, facing all challenges always teach me so many things and grow me up and it makes me feel alive.

I hope in the future, I am able to remain these feelings, being hungry for more and not afraid of changes. I hope to not give up to want to live the life I want, and always be ready to learn more and also work harder.

I don’t know who to thanks, but thank you for giving me all the opportunities, thank you for always supporting me, thank you for staying by my side, thank you for being my motivation and thank you for believing in me. This is to each of you who are by my side. Thank you.

I'll try my best to update more! 

6 movies in 15hours

Just ended 15 hours flight, together with two hours transit in Doha, and also 7 hours in Edinburgh airport the night before, a total of 24 hours. 5 more hours to spend in KLIA with 1 hour flight ahead, and I will be home.

Only times like this, you feel like home is LITERALLY that far.
My flight from Edinburgh to Doha was amazing, might be the few latest Qatar flight, equipped with large wide touch screen, USB and plug.

Finished a total of 6 movies, some halfway, and a few songs in my playlist throughout my flight.

I started with The 8-Year Engagement, a romance, in a total two hours I think I cried for more than an hour. It is THAT touching. It was a movie from a real life story, so the story line made me feel more (or maybe just because the lack of sleep the night before).

Second one was Kingsman, suprisingly, I haven't watched this movie that everyone was talking. A simple nice British movie I guess.

The third and forth movie was during my second flight. Sparks(hanabi) and Isle of dogs. Did not finish both. Sparks was simply nice and Isle of dogs way of story telling was quite special (the guy beside me suggested this one), so special I got bored halfway LOL.

Then, About Time. One of the best movie I've watched. Another romance that caught my heart, and a few lessons that I would really like to remind myself, to always live the moment of every single life episodes.

Last one was Moana, simply watched it for breakfast. Love the soundtrack and the animation, and I simply didn't want to risk another bad movie for my nice breakfast.

Couldn't believe 20days passed by so fast. This will be followed by 2 weeks back home, then another new chapter of life studying abroad in Perth.
Recorded down my summer days in Europe on my Youtube channel, OhMyQiqi. I put quite a lot of effort in constantly producing videos throughout my trip, so please support by watching <3 Although those might just a compilation of a few clips of me turning rounds, thanks for watching.

I'm not sure whether I'm ready for the coming changes and challenges, but I do hope everything will be smooth. Also, let's hope the future me will put effort in updating more frequently. By then, ciao!

The sem before leaving to Perth

Year 2 Sem 2. Done.

I woke up with a severe headache this morning, but I can't sleep in as I have an appointment at 8am later. I guess this is the sense for growing up, so painful.
Finishing my last paper was two days ago, but it felt like weeks ago. This two days was crazy hectic, I have to pack my stuffs, but at the same time have to spend time with the people I think is important here in Miri as this will be our last moments before me leaving to Perth.

This semester was treating me so well and I'm so so grateful for the people around me.
Looking back to my previous posts and writings, I can't recall what happened to me last year and everything seems surreal again. Thank you, for letting the life roller coaster ride a huge lift, everything felt just so right.
I remember I started the semester telling myself to treat people friendly and warm, but don't expect anything in return. Maybe the not expecting part helps, the time spent with the people I new met this semester was amazing. It's not like everyday enjoy kinda amazing, just sitting in class and talking like normal makes me feel amazing.
I got to meet a few friends a younger batch than me, and it started by me unable to choose the same class with my old friends, and I randomly chose a tutorial group, brave myself into the class alone and found out I remembered the wrong time and was late for class, randomly sat with some random strangers as we need to be in a group of three for the weekly assessment, and it turns out they are a bunch of amazing human beings.
Thanks for letting me in your group of friends every week, asked me out for volunteering events together, helping me with my studies, sharing notes and back each other up for lab sessions and weekly group assessment. I will miss the times during tutorial and lab sessions where you guys will share your stories for the whole 2/3 hours. I can't be more grateful to know you guys although this might be our first and last semester spent together, hope we can still keep in touch in the future!!

I also met a few seniors that will cares for my studies by keep saying "fail liao lo" and nags me out for study and food, volunteer to fetch me to campus for classes, accompany me to settle my private stuffs, thanks for not letting me doing this alone, thanks for not buying my "no need I can do it myself", it felt so warm and safe to be with someone else.

By knowing more friends means more social, which is still a pain for me haha.
Most of the times I will still refuse to social, still ignoring messages, still not reply and chat, when I was talked to, but thanks for still staying with me despite me being myself all the time.
Thanks for still diedie drags me out for social, its sometimes tiring but I have to admit it feels warm every time.

Knowing new friends at the same time makes me appreciate for those who stays.
Thanks for understanding and treat me just the same. I still enjoy the communicate without words, hanging out without talking, silent moments when being together. Although sometimes I will be the more annoying one especially when we are really close, the kind that I can kacau you but will merajuk when you kacau me back. Still a balance I need to figure out HAHA

TBH quitting all previous positions and responsible that I joined and worked hard, to make myself a better person, and choose to join what I really enjoy, allows me to be myself more.
I learnt to not care that much, I learnt to let go, at the same time I learn to appreciate.
I learnt to be with myself and not hate myself, although sometimes I still can't accept myself, but I am glad for myself by doing what I want.

This sem seems less achieving, but I felt happier. Learning not to care about what other thinks and the social standards, allow me to do things I think is achieving in my own perspective, and this means a lot to me.

I treated this sem as a new start, as last sem I told myself 失去所有又怎样，重新来过就好了，就像刚到这里时那样 <3 and amazingly it works, new friends, new lifestyle, new things to work on and new things to be happy with. Moreover, the old sweet ones still stays, adding value to this new start. If you are one of those who stays by my side after all these years of me being rude and cold, THANK YOU.

I am still learning how to give, still learning how to be nice and good to people around, thanks for being patient with me, I hope one day I will give you lots of love just like how you guys gave me, be there with you when you needed just like how you guys helped me through. By then, I will try my best.

I'm leaving to Perth for a semester, and it makes this amazing start a stop, and I really hope its just a pause. New environment mean more challenges, and I hope I am ready. I hope life treats me great, and I hope I am strong enough to fight my next battle.

See you when I see you then.

Random trip to Bintulu

It feels more like the annual trip to Bintulu LOL
Three years here in Sarawak, the place I went other than Miri and Brunei is Bintulu, and suprisingly I'm visiting it annually.

This trip was random. Crazily random.
I went with V, which I think we just got close for two weeks(?) and here comes our first trip. Life is amazing huhh.
Thank you for this random trip, a rest much needed. Especially got more motivation to move on with this dull life, with a weekend full of babies and good food.

It was her niece's one year old birthday and her hometown is in Bintulu so she have to travel all the way back there and her mum was quite worried for her to travel alone. I know sometimes it sucks to have a long bus ride alone too. Me being myself enjoy long rides and random trip, so without even thinking I followed her to Bintulu HAHA
I did not even have time to pack the night before, and only on that morning I tried to squeeze everything into my backpack. I am very proud of my packing skills.

That day we had a almost 4 hour bus ride to Bintulu, which we kinda eat and watch videos all the way, and I slept through the ride LOL

I was the one mostly sleepinggg

Her cousin picked us up at the bus terminal and I really have to say in this three years, Bintulu really did developed a lot, they have a nice bus terminal now with air conditioned waiting area.

We then went to her cousin's house and here three babies welcomed me. Paradise.
We rest for a while, showered, changed and went to the dinner venue. She met her family members, and me keep staying by her side,weirdly not feeling awkward. I just simply love the vibes of their family that everyone is so welcoming I felt like home!
Thinking in another way, it's another way to experience the local life here I guess. Finally having the chance after been there three times HAHA

Babies just love me huhhh XD

That night I really did enjoy a lot of good food. Not to forget the cheese tart, I won't tell you I had eight of them (it's small okayyy)

Baby Yona turns ONE!

Birthday set up

cake for the day

the extremely yummy mini cheese tarts

Us with the highlight of the day

That night we slept at her aunt's place, we had a great talk with her aunt and cousin, it just feels right. I brought my computer and tried to study, it did not work, we ended up watching a movie, and felt asleep halfway LOL

Slept tgt in a newlywed room lol

The next morning we had an early breakfast, with amazingly good local food and went back to Miri.

Bintulu local breakkie is loooove

Way back home was full of eating and sleeping too

It was a short and sweet trip. A highlight of this dull semester. Thanks for the babies, and the good food. Till we meet again!!

Falling into place

I saw this quote online last year and instead of just screenshotting it, I wrote it down on my notebook, and hoping things will get better. I remember I was so lost at that time and just writing this down, I wet the whole page with tears because it really do hurts a lot that time.

Just right after I posted my last post, like a miracle, I felt things started to fall into place. I got an exchange offer after being rejected, celebrated our achievement for IGV department we worked for last summer, followed by a new government for my country.
Things starting to feel right, I met someone who makes me feel belonged too, when I feel so lost and alone everyday. Someone that stops me from hiding in my house my room everyday.  I hope this lasts long.
Exchange?
Going to Perth for exchange is always my dream? I never tell anyone because I felt its something so far away and something that is almost impossible to achieve. You can tell I never tell my goals here but only sharing when its achieved most of the time. This place is somewhere I show my positive happy things, and for all the BloodSweatTears, it goes to my diary, sometimes my notebook.

Because this time, I felt like its an achievement after so long, I really want to share the whole journey.
It started when I know I won't want to study in Perth as I don't want to spend that much money just to study abroad when I can do the same here and getting the same certificate in the end. I was hoping to get a scholarship for my final years to study there, but then let's be real, the chances are rare, and if I get any chance, I will of couse grab it.
It was last year when I was in Year1Sem2 when I saw about this exchange program, but one of the requirement to apply is being at least a second year student. That time I was a bit down for not meeting the requirements, but at the same time I was thinking "Hey! Let's apply this next semester then!"
Things did not go very well as they did not open for application for the next semester when I was is Year2Sem1 and since the exchange program started just for a semester, I was thinking maybe they cancelled the program as things may not be going well. I was a little down for that, but I cheered myself up thinking maybe this program is open once every year. Trying to be postive LOL

I remembered I listed exchange as my goal when I felt lost last year and trying to pick myself up. I was planning to apply for the program in Daegu, I was planning to go for Olympics, I was planning to go for this exchange (although that time I was not even sure whether this program is still going on).
It felt so achieving, ticking off goals. Done my project in Daegu, attended Winter Olympics and now, I got the exchange opportunity!!! It felt just like a dream.

This was what I wrote when I found out the exchange program was still going on earlier this semester. I know the chances might be very low, and when I went to get the form from the officer, she told me the quota for engineering students is very limited, and it is hard to get the place. As I always think that me being active in clubs and activities will be a bonus for my application, the only thing they asked from me, is my Academic Transcript. EVERYTHING BASED ON MY ACADEMIC. aka lower chance XD Although my results are not really bad, quite good, but I'm not the very top students that gets into the VClist.
That time, I was lost, I still feel I was back behind and I was not feeling positive for this. Picking myself up step by step was not easy, it was hard, but little by little, and submitting the application form is one of the steps.

This was written during the beginning of the semester. "Things I want to work hard on." The first two was a little private, but I did listed exchange as the 4th important things I want to work on, although that time I had totally no idea how to do it.

I did not get the offer straight away. I got rejected once. That time I was quite down for that, but this is life, things will not always be like what we hope for. There are good times, and of course the bad ones. 50/50. Bad ones make us look forward to the good ones, and sometimes make the good ones even more precious. Just like this time =)

I remember it was an afternoon when I went out for lunch with some of my friends. I was squeezing in the car when I got a call from the officer asking me whether I am still interested in the exchange program. I immediately say YES YES and trying my best to sound as cool as I can but seriously in my mind in my heart it was a huge mess. Could not contain my excitement, I immediately confirmed with my dad, and him being as supportive as always, encouraged me to go for this opportunity.

That night, I got home and sat in front of my desk, and let the reality settled in. I could not hold back but shed happy tears as this is really what I longed and hoped for.
Tbh I was really down this semester as there are really a lot of people that makes me feel I am not important. I was always left out and I wonder is it because I am not good enough to be with. I might not be the kind that always study but I know when to have fun and when to be serious. I am questioning myself whether I should change my way, to be accepted. Maybe when we are growing and the academics goes harder, people just want to stay with those who kept studying and scoring, instead of someone who is a little laid back. It was a hard choice for me, as I know how much I was stressed out before this and I don't want this to repeat, but then if I don't change, people just won't accept me and I hate the feeling being alone and left out. 
This is still something I need to sort out, and it is still something I need to find a balance, but this opportunity, it really helped me to gain back a little of my confidence, a little of assurance that my way of living and treating study is not wrong. So thank you, for this approvment.

I know there are still a lot of things to settle, and a lot of things to prepare myself for this journey. I know it won't be easy and I might fail even more, but I think and I hope that I am ready.
There are still so many uncertainties, that I still don't dare to share the news to my friends so if you are reading this, you are the first few to know XD

IGV Celebration

We celebrated as IGV got to be the most contributing for the Miri community development for last year. It was a little unexpected and it was another assurance after working as a Project Director for Speak Up! Did not regret joining AIESEC or working as an IGV member all way long. This dinner makes me felt like home again, and without all those heavy responsibility and deadlines, it was even really a great talk and a great meal.
We went for the sunset and beach while waiting for our food.

My boss.

We really did had a great meal, belanja by AIESEC =))))

That night I came back for the election results, and went to sleep halfway when we almost won. Woke up to a public holiday and my class all canceled after I got ready, I went back to sleep and woke up to another email saying NO HOLIDAY. I then went all the way to the campus for a one hour tutorial class, which ended up the lecturer did not come. LOL.

Got home to my comfy place. Hello new government.

We did our choice. Now let's hope there will be a better future.

If you are feeling lost. I hope this post can cheer you up. Things will eventually get better. Just like how mine did. This is to the past and future me too.

Ending this post with one of my favorite song when I was lost, and my favorite now too as it just makes sense. SAZANKA.

2018 first semester

HA. HA.
It's halfway, almost an end and here's my first post of the semester, I'm not sorry, and am hoping for more coming ones in this semester. Hopefully.
This semester was all chill, I had more time for myself which is not that right coz I'm too chill ... but in another way, I think it's good to try to give myself some time, and it turns out not bad. It felt like 'working' for myself other than for someone else.

Things I noticed: I can never be a freelancer. My self discipline is so bad, I can never finish the things I want on time, procrastinating is my best skill and realize I'm more to a follow-the-schedule person.
Another thing I noticed: It is okay to be weak, it is okay to show or tell your weakness, but too much is not good. Everyone faces it. So do I, and I believe so do you!

I thought this semester was all gloomy. I THOUGHT.
Until I went through my album for the past few weeks, and it's actually great! Then I realize I'm not living to the sentence I wrote on this blog---Appreciate the little things in life.
Pictures tell stories, and I realize there are so many happy moments in the past few months.
I started this blog, for no reason, and I simple want to record moments. Although I can't find a reason, I still chose to just do it, and you'll find it out.

Okay. Updates.

Curtin Malaysia Biggest Loser
Lose weight program. I lost only 2kg, which I can easily gain back after a good meal =] Considered not very successful, but I made great memories.
Guess what? As we got in by teams, we actually got the last place in one of the weeks, literally biggest loser. No regrets.
No kidding but I seriously work out a lot and eat clean. It was a struggle both mentally and physically. During this six weeks journey I tried to exercise at a daily basis, and it actually felts great, but it is also a hard task to maintain after that six weeks LOL I now do workout but no more daily ._.
I am glad I did not give up halfway, and worked all the way till the last week. Lose weight is a long journey, I felt it more LOL Given this body that can never slim down. Sigh.

From thick to thin HAHA

I started cooking!
I always think one of my weakness is I'm not good at cooking. I still can't understand why do people want to spend so many time cooking a meal which may not turn out good, when there are so many yummy ones out there ready for you.
My ex-housemate Maisei actually made me starting this journey, she told me you'll feel accomplished after cooking a great meal. Another reason is that I was at this losing weight journey so I tried not to eat out as much as I can.
I literally cut down all fast food, no ice drinks, no desserts and only healthy food.

Here's a collage of the healthy diet food I prepared. Which does not taste very good LOL Because I am a bad cook? but I am glad I tried, and really did feel accomplished.

I got on Curtin's website
Can this consider an accomplishment? Because I feel it does, although I look extremely ugly here.
I was on the first page of the website mannn!! Don't wanna lie this felt great XD

Byin's graduation
Jacline and I attended Byin's convocation. We were a team when we were in AIESEC for SpeakUp.
It felt amazing seeing my seniors graduating, starting their working life. She is now working in Singapore and I just feel so great that hard works really do pay off.
Can't wait to graduate soon!!!

Birthday! 21.
I turned 21 on 14th April.
I always say I got no friends because I really don't.
It was just on time, that I got to have my own event on this very special day. It felt like nothing can be more meaningful than this.

Me being myself, wanted to go to the casino when I am 21, although I went into once in Macau XD
I got no birthday cake and no celebration I kinda slept the whole day after my event LOL

My lovely ex-housemate actually got me two cakes just a few minutes before 12am and we chatted for a while, and it taught me to appreciate this little moments more <3 It ended up she had to rush back home to return her car and I finished two cakes on that night LOL Sad life. At least there's cake =]

I started planting flowers
I was planning to bring back some greens to put in my room (the kind that you soak in water and it grows) and mom makes me brings flowers too.
I love flowers. Tell me which girl on Earth doesn't!
I know it isn't hard to grow them, especially this two kinds I brought back, but I did not expect it to bloom almost everyday!
It makes me feel happy seeing new flowers blooming everyday, and because there are a few shades of them it makes me look forward what kind of color combination I will get for the day!

My babies <3

Community Service Video!
This is a little thing I felt great of. We have this MPU unit which need a video presentation and I got to edit the video! I did not spend a lot of time editing it and I feel proud HAHA
It felt more like a vlog tho, and I love filming and editing vlogs. Which I then realize I can't be a good vlogger because I always ended up not filming things, and being an introvert myself my thoughts just belongs to my mind and I never speak them out LOL
Do check it out here if you're interested!! We did a car wash and visited the old folks home!

I look forward to myself for updating more. Please do so too!

EveryDay6 concert in Daegu

I remember I first knew Day6 in my first semester in Curtin, that was when they first debut and "Congratulations" randomly popped up on my Youtube suggestion and I straight fell in love. I remember that was during my finals period and I kept playing the whole album through my study period. I still remember I love "Like That Sun" the most and it is also the first time I tried to learn to read and write Korean <3

Before I came to Korea, I knew I wanted to go for a concert here, and I'm so worried I can't get to go any of them because of my schedule and also the ticketing is so hard here!!
On my 3rd/4th day when I was on the phone with Zoe, she suddenly mentioned her friend is selling her tix in Daegu, and we both suddenly realized everything is just so right and got excited the whole night XD
That time I got a seat quite behind but a few weeks later Zoe's friend on twitter told me that there are more seats cancelled. Thank God I went from 3rd row from behind to 3rd row from the front!! Although it's second floor, but it's a small venue I am already veryyyyy grateful!!! (God knows how hard it is to get a ticket everything actually sold out in 3mins)

Just like how I mentioned in my previous posts, last semester was really tough for me. It was so hard to go through everything and Day6's song is a huge part that keeps me going. Their lyrics always make sense a lot and always so relatable, it never failed to calm me down (Thank you YoungK!).
Also because of Everyday6 I was getting so many new great songs at a monthly basis XD Their songs kinda accompanied me through 2017, I was listening to their songs at a daily basis, coz its the only thing that can calm me down (the first thing I do at home after a long day is to play their songs and study through the night) So yes, they really REALLY mean a lot to me.

*Hello to my fangirl side that I don't usually show XD*

So I reached the venue at around 12pm, as the merch is selling at 3pm people are queuing long before that time, I got my list and my number was alrdy 234 ._. (but glad that I ended up getting what I want hehh)

A little late but I got everything I want!!

After that I met up with a friend on twitter from HongKong and we kinda hang out for a while then started going around for freebies XD
We got so many merch although those are not mine holding it in my hands I felt happiness XDD
Before we got in I met up with a few Singapore friends from twitter too HAHA it felt amazing how fandom brings people together <3

I was freezing queuing for merch I didn't even notice I was bleeding LOL

Ticket is so niceeeeee

first time to a concert alone!!

they gave us this manner guide before the concert how sweet <3

I was so calm the whole time. Instead of keep dancing to the song, I just sat still and enjoy every single song when we were seated. When we stood up of course I was dancing hard, now I am home with a whole sore body HAHA

I remembered they started with 누군가 필요해 (I Need Somebody/Why Am I Alone) and so I got to hear everyone's voices clear individually, got touched and was tearing straight away with a wide smile throughout the whole song.

Wonpil is like the MC for the night (they call him DJ Wonpil awwww) so I get to hear him most of the time. When he started talking, the first word that popped out my mind is MANJA. He was talking so soft all the time and I melted and melted all the time LOL

Jae was the nearest to me and thank God he keeps coming to the front of the stage bless my eyes bless my soul. Although all Day6 members have really good vocal, but Jae has the most emotional(?) ones? It sang into my heart the whole time.

SungJin as always with his crazy amazing vocal, so stable all time it felt like just from the CD and I got to hear his OK~~ everyone laughed at him every time he said Ok~~ haha

YoungK wore a long leather coat, being as handsome as usual being so cool with his rap and base, a really huge thank you to him for writing all the lyrics that helped me through my hard time (WHAT IS IN YOUR MINDDDD)

Dowoon talked the less (as usual) and he is so cuteeeee all the time but the image changed straight away when he is with his drum, the way he talks the way he moves, too cute I want to squeeeze.

I am so glad I get to hear all my favorite song that night. Going to a concert in Korea is so different everyone is so good at the fanchant, I was having goosebumps all the time. Before I went to the concert, I was actually stressing out as MyDays are really good at singing and they can sing all the songs include the Bside ones. Although I was listening to Day6's song at a daily basis whole last year, but MyDay is really another level!!

Before the encore stage, instead of shouting 'encore', the whole hall was singing to the song played background. They sang SingMe when they came out again, it was not one of my favourite but now it is!! Ohhh, Jae was wearing a sleeveless tee under his jacket during encore stage so when he was playing his guitar and his jacket "accidentally" opens... haha.. although he is really just tall and thin... like a tiang HAHA

During the last ment, Jae said that his friends kept saying "it must be hard" for everyday6 project having to come out with new songs every month, but he never felt so.. He could be feeling "Ah.. I'm sleepy" or "Ah... I'm hungry" but never once he felt like "Ah... I'm tired" as getting to perform such great stage for MyDays, hearing MyDay singing along in their concert, it's always worth it.
This really touched me and I hope I get to have this mindset, and keep doing things that never make me feels "Ah I'm tired" <3
I was expecting a little too much for them to speak English, the whole concert the only word I heard in English is Brian's YES and that's all HAHA

3hours really passed by just in a blink. When they said it's the last song before coming out for the encore, I felt like only 30mins passed ;-; Why does it feel so shorttttttt.
It was really a great day spent. I hope this won't be the last concert with Day6. I am so glad to be able to go for this in Daegu, getting the tickets which actually sold out in 3mins, a small hall before they are having one in the Olympic hall this March.

Concert merch and freebies I got that day <3

Looking forward for more good music in the future, more tweets and vlogs from Jae too!
Till we meet again!

vlog: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WGOO0HZVQCM