I remember before changing my blog quote to "Appreciate the little things in life", it used to be "Climb higher, not so the world can see you, but so you can see the world".
I was having my PPE lecture and the class was around 30 students, unlike back in Malaysia, students here are more likely to share their opinions during class.
There was this time when the lecturer asked the class who had done their vacation internship and there were around 5 students who raised their hands, followed by sharing what they did in their internship. Their sharing makes me felt more like what I'm currently studying sounds much more practical, and they gave me the feeling that they are studying not to pass, but to apply it in real life.
I don't know whether it is my Asian kiasu genes working, or it's just the reality dawned on me, I felt that I am so left back. I am being content by able to get good grades, able to do things I like and able to grab opportunities, but I felt still so behind.
This post might be just a reminder for myself, to always be content, but at the same time, aim higher and do more, work harder. I might be good, but I am just not good enough.
I started to think back what I have done during my free time. Maybe I did some volunteering jobs and some exchange program, working on something that I called "interested in". I think I learnt it the hard way, that even though I want to work on more education projects, but everything I can do is just so little, and maybe I should climb higher, becoming stronger and then focus on it.
I might be doing my internship at the end of this year. Back in yesterday I was still so unmotivated to work on it, it felt like a burden to look for internships, and I was still thinking: growing up sucks HAHH
But definitely not today, after some short sharing sessions, it makes the work life sounds so interesting, and this kinda motivated me!
Mom was running places with me and sent me to the airport even though she's not feeling well.
The scene from my second flight was 100%, a huge yellow moon so low so huge and so clear.
It was a looong flight, with a loooong sleep and I landed late at night, feeling a little too cold, tired, sleepy and a little scary.
Safely made my way to home, had a hot shower, and went to a little chilly bed with my Koda.
First day here was trying to settle down, I tried to went around a bit, got my SIMcard and bought groceries.
Before I remember I have to go around the campus, I was already with two hands full off bags of groceries LOL
So I ended up not going a lot of places, stayed at home, didn't really know what to do HAHH
Second day here was GREATTTTT.
I got to go out with my friend's friends to town, as they were on a vacation here, I got to go touristy places in Perth!
We first dropped by the campus for Open Day, got a little familiar with the environment. Spot ARMY on campus too!
We then went all the way to the city, dropped off at Elizabeth Quay, took some pictures and walked all the way to Crown Perth.
Accidentally met Hossein which I knew him back in Miri, so we went around the town together too!
Had Honey Creme's ice cream and grapefruite juice. The ice cream was soooo good, insta worthy too!
We then went to UWA to go around, which we passed by the Blue Boat House which is in the middle of nowhere.
Being touristy in another university.
Gang of the day!
We then walked all the way to King's Park for the sunset. It was a long journey as what we only had was Google Maps. We did not get to catch the sunset but the view was amazingggg.
That night we rushed back to town for Korean BBQ for dinner as a long queue was expected.
After dinner, we then suddenly decided to have soju, 3bottles for 7 of us HAHA
Brings back my memories back in Korea, I miss every single one I met in Korea!!
Got a little dipsy as not everyone is good at drinking, we then went to Elizabeth Quay again for the night view. It was so cold and was raining a little so we had the whole place.
First day of school was a little lonely, I went to open my bank account and got my SMARTrider card, went around the campus and I was so bad at direction I spent 30mins to find my class LOL The future me will laugh at my old self XD
Dinner was cooking at home with Cindy.
We accidentally cooked too much LOL
Second day was an early morning 8am class. It was so cold in the morning, such nice weather to sleep I dozed a few times during lecture.
Got to meet up with an old friend after class too.
He showed me around, and we got good food and had a great talk.
Thanks for the meal too!
This kinda sums up the few days after being here in Perth.
Still did not get to make a lot of friends yet, and still getting lost on campus.
Still a little free now, and still finding things to do!
It's getting busier soon I guess!
Will try to keep updating!!
It still
feels so surreal, that I am going to do this semester in Perth.
I keep
wondering do I deserve all this opportunities, as I don’t think I am good
enough. I’m afraid I’ll lose something after gaining so so much.
The past
semester break was great, amazingly great. I went to places, living the life. I
went back home too, enjoy all the small little happiness with people I love
around me.
It’s hard
too, I realize, to not lose yourself after so many criticism.
Yesterday was
Zoe’s call ceremony at Middle Temple, now she’s officially a barrister. My all
time study partner, my inspiration and my motivation now graduated and starting
to work!! I miss those days we burn the midnight oil to study for PMR and SPM
together, with Jpop and Kpop idols being our motivation all time. We do argue a
lot but I’m glad in the end only those lovely memories remain.
This
morning I went to a temple near our house, we pray for everything to be smooth
for us and everyone to always stay healthy. I really don’t wish for more as I
felt I have more than enough, I am having a lot of things that I don’t really
think I deserve. For the family to be healthy and things to be smooth is all I
wish for.
We then
went for last minute shopping and rushed home to pack before rushing to the
airport.
It’s
amazing how this blog sees me from a little girl knowing nothing, until her
first trip alone, travelling to places, and now being a little grown up, knew
more things and starting to study abroad. It still feels the same though, I am
still afraid of a lot of things, but I am also brave enough to face it.
I still
enjoy having life changes, facing all challenges always teach me so many things
and grow me up and it makes me feel alive.
I hope in
the future, I am able to remain these feelings, being hungry for more and not
afraid of changes. I hope to not give up to want to live the life I want, and
always be ready to learn more and also work harder.
I don’t
know who to thanks, but thank you for giving me all the opportunities, thank
you for always supporting me, thank you for staying by my side, thank you for
being my motivation and thank you for believing in me. This is to each of you
who are by my side. Thank you.
I woke up with a severe headache this morning, but I can't sleep in as I have an appointment at 8am later. I guess this is the sense for growing up, so painful.
Finishing my last paper was two days ago, but it felt like weeks ago. This two days was crazy hectic, I have to pack my stuffs, but at the same time have to spend time with the people I think is important here in Miri as this will be our last moments before me leaving to Perth.
This semester was treating me so well and I'm so so grateful for the people around me.
Looking back to my previous posts and writings, I can't recall what happened to me last year and everything seems surreal again. Thank you, for letting the life roller coaster ride a huge lift, everything felt just so right.
I remember I started the semester telling myself to treat people friendly and warm, but don't expect anything in return. Maybe the not expecting part helps, the time spent with the people I new met this semester was amazing. It's not like everyday enjoy kinda amazing, just sitting in class and talking like normal makes me feel amazing.
I got to meet a few friends a younger batch than me, and it started by me unable to choose the same class with my old friends, and I randomly chose a tutorial group, brave myself into the class alone and found out I remembered the wrong time and was late for class, randomly sat with some random strangers as we need to be in a group of three for the weekly assessment, and it turns out they are a bunch of amazing human beings.
Thanks for letting me in your group of friends every week, asked me out for volunteering events together, helping me with my studies, sharing notes and back each other up for lab sessions and weekly group assessment. I will miss the times during tutorial and lab sessions where you guys will share your stories for the whole 2/3 hours. I can't be more grateful to know you guys although this might be our first and last semester spent together, hope we can still keep in touch in the future!!
I also met a few seniors that will cares for my studies by keep saying "fail liao lo" and nags me out for study and food, volunteer to fetch me to campus for classes, accompany me to settle my private stuffs, thanks for not letting me doing this alone, thanks for not buying my "no need I can do it myself", it felt so warm and safe to be with someone else.
By knowing more friends means more social, which is still a pain for me haha.
Most of the times I will still refuse to social, still ignoring messages, still not reply and chat, when I was talked to, but thanks for still staying with me despite me being myself all the time.
Thanks for still diedie drags me out for social, its sometimes tiring but I have to admit it feels warm every time.
Knowing new friends at the same time makes me appreciate for those who stays.
Thanks for understanding and treat me just the same. I still enjoy the communicate without words, hanging out without talking, silent moments when being together. Although sometimes I will be the more annoying one especially when we are really close, the kind that I can kacau you but will merajuk when you kacau me back. Still a balance I need to figure out HAHA
TBH quitting all previous positions and responsible that I joined and worked hard, to make myself a better person, and choose to join what I really enjoy, allows me to be myself more.
I learnt to not care that much, I learnt to let go, at the same time I learn to appreciate.
I learnt to be with myself and not hate myself, although sometimes I still can't accept myself, but I am glad for myself by doing what I want.
This sem seems less achieving, but I felt happier. Learning not to care about what other thinks and the social standards, allow me to do things I think is achieving in my own perspective, and this means a lot to me.
I treated this sem as a new start, as last sem I told myself 失去所有又怎样，重新来过就好了，就像刚到这里时那样 <3 and amazingly it works, new friends, new lifestyle, new things to work on and new things to be happy with. Moreover, the old sweet ones still stays, adding value to this new start. If you are one of those who stays by my side after all these years of me being rude and cold, THANK YOU.
I am still learning how to give, still learning how to be nice and good to people around, thanks for being patient with me, I hope one day I will give you lots of love just like how you guys gave me, be there with you when you needed just like how you guys helped me through. By then, I will try my best.
I'm leaving to Perth for a semester, and it makes this amazing start a stop, and I really hope its just a pause. New environment mean more challenges, and I hope I am ready. I hope life treats me great, and I hope I am strong enough to fight my next battle.
It feels more like the annual trip to Bintulu LOL
Three years here in Sarawak, the place I went other than Miri and Brunei is Bintulu, and suprisingly I'm visiting it annually.
This trip was random. Crazily random.
I went with V, which I think we just got close for two weeks(?) and here comes our first trip. Life is amazing huhh.
Thank you for this random trip, a rest much needed. Especially got more motivation to move on with this dull life, with a weekend full of babies and good food.
It was her niece's one year old birthday and her hometown is in Bintulu so she have to travel all the way back there and her mum was quite worried for her to travel alone. I know sometimes it sucks to have a long bus ride alone too. Me being myself enjoy long rides and random trip, so without even thinking I followed her to Bintulu HAHA
I did not even have time to pack the night before, and only on that morning I tried to squeeze everything into my backpack. I am very proud of my packing skills.
That day we had a almost 4 hour bus ride to Bintulu, which we kinda eat and watch videos all the way, and I slept through the ride LOL
I was the one mostly sleepinggg
Her cousin picked us up at the bus terminal and I really have to say in this three years, Bintulu really did developed a lot, they have a nice bus terminal now with air conditioned waiting area.
We then went to her cousin's house and here three babies welcomed me. Paradise.
We rest for a while, showered, changed and went to the dinner venue. She met her family members, and me keep staying by her side,weirdly not feeling awkward. I just simply love the vibes of their family that everyone is so welcoming I felt like home!
Thinking in another way, it's another way to experience the local life here I guess. Finally having the chance after been there three times HAHA
Babies just love me huhhh XD
That night I really did enjoy a lot of good food. Not to forget the cheese tart, I won't tell you I had eight of them (it's small okayyy)
Baby Yona turns ONE!
Birthday set up
cake for the day
the extremely yummy mini cheese tarts
Us with the highlight of the day
That night we slept at her aunt's place, we had a great talk with her aunt and cousin, it just feels right. I brought my computer and tried to study, it did not work, we ended up watching a movie, and felt asleep halfway LOL
Slept tgt in a newlywed room lol
The next morning we had an early breakfast, with amazingly good local food and went back to Miri.
Bintulu local breakkie is loooove
Way back home was full of eating and sleeping too
It was a short and sweet trip. A highlight of this dull semester. Thanks for the babies, and the good food. Till we meet again!!
I saw this quote online last year and instead of just screenshotting it, I wrote it down on my notebook, and hoping things will get better. I remember I was so lost at that time and just writing this down, I wet the whole page with tears because it really do hurts a lot that time.
Just right after I posted my last post, like a miracle, I felt things started to fall into place. I got an exchange offer after being rejected, celebrated our achievement for IGV department we worked for last summer, followed by a new government for my country. Things starting to feel right, I met someone who makes me feel belonged too, when I feel so lost and alone everyday. Someone that stops me from hiding in my house my room everyday. I hope this lasts long. Exchange?
Going to Perth for exchange is always my dream? I never tell anyone because I felt its something so far away and something that is almost impossible to achieve. You can tell I never tell my goals here but only sharing when its achieved most of the time. This place is somewhere I show my positive happy things, and for all the BloodSweatTears, it goes to my diary, sometimes my notebook.
Because this time, I felt like its an achievement after so long, I really want to share the whole journey.
It started when I know I won't want to study in Perth as I don't want to spend that much money just to study abroad when I can do the same here and getting the same certificate in the end. I was hoping to get a scholarship for my final years to study there, but then let's be real, the chances are rare, and if I get any chance, I will of couse grab it.
It was last year when I was in Year1Sem2 when I saw about this exchange program, but one of the requirement to apply is being at least a second year student. That time I was a bit down for not meeting the requirements, but at the same time I was thinking "Hey! Let's apply this next semester then!"
Things did not go very well as they did not open for application for the next semester when I was is Year2Sem1 and since the exchange program started just for a semester, I was thinking maybe they cancelled the program as things may not be going well. I was a little down for that, but I cheered myself up thinking maybe this program is open once every year. Trying to be postive LOL
I remembered I listed exchange as my goal when I felt lost last year and trying to pick myself up. I was planning to apply for the program in Daegu, I was planning to go for Olympics, I was planning to go for this exchange (although that time I was not even sure whether this program is still going on).
It felt so achieving, ticking off goals. Done my project in Daegu, attended Winter Olympics and now, I got the exchange opportunity!!! It felt just like a dream.
This was what I wrote when I found out the exchange program was still going on earlier this semester. I know the chances might be very low, and when I went to get the form from the officer, she told me the quota for engineering students is very limited, and it is hard to get the place. As I always think that me being active in clubs and activities will be a bonus for my application, the only thing they asked from me, is my Academic Transcript. EVERYTHING BASED ON MY ACADEMIC. aka lower chance XD Although my results are not really bad, quite good, but I'm not the very top students that gets into the VClist.
That time, I was lost, I still feel I was back behind and I was not feeling positive for this. Picking myself up step by step was not easy, it was hard, but little by little, and submitting the application form is one of the steps.
This was written during the beginning of the semester. "Things I want to work hard on." The first two was a little private, but I did listed exchange as the 4th important things I want to work on, although that time I had totally no idea how to do it.
I did not get the offer straight away. I got rejected once. That time I was quite down for that, but this is life, things will not always be like what we hope for. There are good times, and of course the bad ones. 50/50. Bad ones make us look forward to the good ones, and sometimes make the good ones even more precious. Just like this time =)
I remember it was an afternoon when I went out for lunch with some of my friends. I was squeezing in the car when I got a call from the officer asking me whether I am still interested in the exchange program. I immediately say YES YES and trying my best to sound as cool as I can but seriously in my mind in my heart it was a huge mess. Could not contain my excitement, I immediately confirmed with my dad, and him being as supportive as always, encouraged me to go for this opportunity.
That night, I got home and sat in front of my desk, and let the reality settled in. I could not hold back but shed happy tears as this is really what I longed and hoped for. Tbh I was really down this semester as there are really a lot of people that makes me feel I am not important. I was always left out and I wonder is it because I am not good enough to be with. I might not be the kind that always study but I know when to have fun and when to be serious. I am questioning myself whether I should change my way, to be accepted. Maybe when we are growing and the academics goes harder, people just want to stay with those who kept studying and scoring, instead of someone who is a little laid back. It was a hard choice for me, as I know how much I was stressed out before this and I don't want this to repeat, but then if I don't change, people just won't accept me and I hate the feeling being alone and left out.
This is still something I need to sort out, and it is still something I need to find a balance, but this opportunity, it really helped me to gain back a little of my confidence, a little of assurance that my way of living and treating study is not wrong. So thank you, for this approvment.
I know there are still a lot of things to settle, and a lot of things to prepare myself for this journey. I know it won't be easy and I might fail even more, but I think and I hope that I am ready.
There are still so many uncertainties, that I still don't dare to share the news to my friends so if you are reading this, you are the first few to know XD
IGV Celebration
We celebrated as IGV got to be the most contributing for the Miri community development for last year. It was a little unexpected and it was another assurance after working as a Project Director for Speak Up! Did not regret joining AIESEC or working as an IGV member all way long. This dinner makes me felt like home again, and without all those heavy responsibility and deadlines, it was even really a great talk and a great meal.
We went for the sunset and beach while waiting for our food.
My boss.
We really did had a great meal, belanja by AIESEC =))))
That night I came back for the election results, and went to sleep halfway when we almost won. Woke up to a public holiday and my class all canceled after I got ready, I went back to sleep and woke up to another email saying NO HOLIDAY. I then went all the way to the campus for a one hour tutorial class, which ended up the lecturer did not come. LOL.
Got home to my comfy place. Hello new government.
We did our choice. Now let's hope there will be a better future.
If you are feeling lost. I hope this post can cheer you up. Things will eventually get better. Just like how mine did. This is to the past and future me too.
Ending this post with one of my favorite song when I was lost, and my favorite now too as it just makes sense. SAZANKA.
HA. HA.
It's halfway, almost an end and here's my first post of the semester, I'm not sorry, and am hoping for more coming ones in this semester. Hopefully.
This semester was all chill, I had more time for myself which is not that right coz I'm too chill ... but in another way, I think it's good to try to give myself some time, and it turns out not bad. It felt like 'working' for myself other than for someone else.
Things I noticed: I can never be a freelancer. My self discipline is so bad, I can never finish the things I want on time, procrastinating is my best skill and realize I'm more to a follow-the-schedule person. Another thing I noticed: It is okay to be weak, it is okay to show or tell your weakness, but too much is not good. Everyone faces it. So do I, and I believe so do you!
I thought this semester was all gloomy. I THOUGHT.
Until I went through my album for the past few weeks, and it's actually great! Then I realize I'm not living to the sentence I wrote on this blog---Appreciate the little things in life.
Pictures tell stories, and I realize there are so many happy moments in the past few months.
I started this blog, for no reason, and I simple want to record moments. Although I can't find a reason, I still chose to just do it, and you'll find it out.
Okay. Updates.
Curtin Malaysia Biggest Loser
Lose weight program. I lost only 2kg, which I can easily gain back after a good meal =] Considered not very successful, but I made great memories.
Guess what? As we got in by teams, we actually got the last place in one of the weeks, literally biggest loser. No regrets.
No kidding but I seriously work out a lot and eat clean. It was a struggle both mentally and physically. During this six weeks journey I tried to exercise at a daily basis, and it actually felts great, but it is also a hard task to maintain after that six weeks LOL I now do workout but no more daily ._.
I am glad I did not give up halfway, and worked all the way till the last week. Lose weight is a long journey, I felt it more LOL Given this body that can never slim down. Sigh.
From thick to thin HAHA
I started cooking!
I always think one of my weakness is I'm not good at cooking. I still can't understand why do people want to spend so many time cooking a meal which may not turn out good, when there are so many yummy ones out there ready for you.
My ex-housemate Maisei actually made me starting this journey, she told me you'll feel accomplished after cooking a great meal. Another reason is that I was at this losing weight journey so I tried not to eat out as much as I can.
I literally cut down all fast food, no ice drinks, no desserts and only healthy food.
Here's a collage of the healthy diet food I prepared. Which does not taste very good LOL Because I am a bad cook? but I am glad I tried, and really did feel accomplished.
I got on Curtin's website
Can this consider an accomplishment? Because I feel it does, although I look extremely ugly here.
I was on the first page of the website mannn!! Don't wanna lie this felt great XD
Byin's graduation
Jacline and I attended Byin's convocation. We were a team when we were in AIESEC for SpeakUp.
It felt amazing seeing my seniors graduating, starting their working life. She is now working in Singapore and I just feel so great that hard works really do pay off.
Can't wait to graduate soon!!!
Birthday! 21.
I turned 21 on 14th April.
I always say I got no friends because I really don't.
It was just on time, that I got to have my own event on this very special day. It felt like nothing can be more meaningful than this.
Me being myself, wanted to go to the casino when I am 21, although I went into once in Macau XD
I got no birthday cake and no celebration I kinda slept the whole day after my event LOL
My lovely ex-housemate actually got me two cakes just a few minutes before 12am and we chatted for a while, and it taught me to appreciate this little moments more <3 It ended up she had to rush back home to return her car and I finished two cakes on that night LOL Sad life. At least there's cake =]
I started planting flowers
I was planning to bring back some greens to put in my room (the kind that you soak in water and it grows) and mom makes me brings flowers too.
I love flowers. Tell me which girl on Earth doesn't!
I know it isn't hard to grow them, especially this two kinds I brought back, but I did not expect it to bloom almost everyday!
It makes me feel happy seeing new flowers blooming everyday, and because there are a few shades of them it makes me look forward what kind of color combination I will get for the day!
My babies <3
Community Service Video!
This is a little thing I felt great of. We have this MPU unit which need a video presentation and I got to edit the video! I did not spend a lot of time editing it and I feel proud HAHA
It felt more like a vlog tho, and I love filming and editing vlogs. Which I then realize I can't be a good vlogger because I always ended up not filming things, and being an introvert myself my thoughts just belongs to my mind and I never speak them out LOL
Do check it out here if you're interested!! We did a car wash and visited the old folks home!
I look forward to myself for updating more. Please do so too!
5th semester in Curtin, and if I can pass every unit on time, I should be graduating after 10 semesters, so yea! Halfway!!
A post as a conclusion for this semester. Same, ups and downs.
I remember it started with a loooooong trip in the UK and Europe, then straight to running projects, having to move out suddenly, gaodim the EPs and try not to kill anyone at the same time as I don't have enough sleep for a few weeks. Survived, and looking back it look so far back away.
I can surely tell my academics and maybe clubs too got more heavier as I updated less (or maybe just my time management got worse who knows) I tried to keep up but then there are more priorities now I feel sorry for this blog.
This semester was not a very nice one to be honest.
There were so many happenings, facing so many dramas. Just a funny note so that I can laugh at myself in the future(?) :
- Not standing up to the right person just because I felt betray(?) and at the same time listening to someone I was closer at that time. Looking back, I just see everything so funny. But then, all those who did not stood up to the right person, are the ones supporting the wrong decision, and you know who you are. People are just so blind with an image and will not try to understand the whole story? That's the problem of lots of people nowadays, and it's sad =/
- Same like above, I did wrong and maybe ruined my whole semester just because I chose to hold grudge to my closest friend, and maybe also because we started to have different units and lotsa club events. BUTTTT still very grateful, that we spent the last few days of the semester preparing for finals tgt then had a few very crazy times tgt. STORIES ONLY WE KNOW.
- and lotsa betrayal dramas....
- Spent all my time on something that was not appreciated? Because of all those dramas?? But then I have to be really grateful that the closest two girls were so supportive and believe in me and I think that's enough coz the ones you really care hurts the most (and thanks for not hurting me? XD)
Thanks to those I have a looooot of alone time this semester, and those who really care shines in my eyes so its a few good lessons to teach me who to keep.
It's a very emotional semester that half of the days I was crying out loud in my room and have no idea what's happening and what to do. With all these emotional writings you can probably tell how emotional I was HAHA
I have to say it ended quite good though.
I felt like I learnt so much in another way. It helps me rethink so many things and clearly sort out what I want and who to keep.
Because of all those dramas and also emotional nights, I made an effort to try to sort out goals and gladly get to make some effort!! Those are what I think I want and although I'm still not sure, I believe that we can never really define myself, and getting to accept the fact(?) that it's okay to not know what I want to do =)
A little academic wise, Process Principles is really a KILLING SUBJECT, I think I'm prepared for the worst >< just pleaseeee don't let me retake TT
Thermo, RFC was theory, PEA was a little hard for me especially for the project, thanks for carrying me senpai!! I pay you with meals okayyy? XD
and also MPU subjects, Economics and TRIZ. I think I'm the only who took both units, Econs was fun and I was already looking forward before starting. Ended up?? I spent one night studying and squeezing everything in my mind and realised my brain was still functioning well just because Engineering was too hard for my brain ._. TRIZ was fun too, I learnt how to see things differently anddddd thats all HAHH
Okay holiday started for a couple days alrdy. Zen and JJ was back here and I have to take care of them when aunt goes to work. DISASTER. Very grateful I'm still alive.
Okay, before we go into -my cravings for spicy food- or how I ended up so, the N times apologize from me for not updating regularly. I had been questioning life again and again, feeling all insecurities and felt so depressed until the point I can't be on social media anymore, everything is making me sickening.
I was also questioning why did I start blogging when there is no one there to read, when there is no one that cares, when all the time I spent on writing all these post gone wasted, no one even care about my life. I lost direction, trying to think of something to write that people out there really want to read, but then I was limited.
I decided to come back here for a post to update my life, as one of the reason I started this blog was just to record down my life. Back then I did not find a reason yet, but I was thinking everything needs a start! and I randomly started, it's been more than two years I continued doing this, and yet I still can't find a reason and I started questioning whether I should continue, as this blog felt like a goal without an objective(?) or without a reason and direction.
Deep feelings aside, still gonna update my life anyway!
How's life? Busy. As usual.
I was at a point that I feel like I can't pass this semester, a point I felt so helpless and wanted to just give up. That was how busy and tough this semester is, but gladly I think I survived, slowly to finals and ending this semester.
Last tuition free week I did not go home and stayed here in Miri, enjoying life till max. I guess?
This was a morning when I had a meeting with a very inspiring person
went to a one day site visit in Bintulu
alcohol every night to end the day
gym everyday which has a sauna room
Trying to stay healthy and have homecook food when we can.
My housemate is not a fan of meat so mostly are veges.
I am also addicted cutting my bangs it goes shorter and shorter.
I don't like it hanging in front of my eyes, and shorter means I can wait longer for the next time.
I was too naive, forgetting I have curly hair, now I can't even control how my bangs look like LOL.
I did not know when did I start craving for spicy food.
I had been a very good girl that try to eat as plain as possible, as I know I can easily get heated up if I don't control what I eat. This includes having toothache, sore throat, pimple bursting everywhere and also fat ._. as spicy food really do make you eat more.
I don't know how is my stomach condition now, I am not even good at eating spicy food to start with, and my record for the past few weeks was crazy.
All of these are some fancy and spicy meals I had. Other than these, I probably was eating nothing, or having cereal with coffee as breakfast and supper. You can definitely tell my life is messed up by what I was eating.
samyang yessss
sarawak laksa
thai fish burger
korean bibimbap
ma la ban mee
ayam penyet
kimchi fried rice
yes I found penang laksa
Okay I made myself all hungry posting these.
I painted my nails black pink for a few days.
Then removed it as my fingers felt cold.
Learnt to appreciate the view from my window.
I always love these calming views.
but mostly my view will be this...
trying to love my studies.
A stack of notes, a tab, my pencil case and calculators.
These are the things that give me comfort.
Along with snacks, chocs, coffee and a huge bottle of water.
