NOoneONearthy: My cravings for spicy food

Okay, before we go into -my cravings for spicy food- or how I ended up so, the N times apologize from me for not updating regularly. I had been questioning life again and again, feeling all insecurities and felt so depressed until the point I can't be on social media anymore, everything is making me sickening.

I was also questioning why did I start blogging when there is no one there to read, when there is no one that cares, when all the time I spent on writing all these post gone wasted, no one even care about my life. I lost direction, trying to think of something to write that people out there really want to read, but then I was limited.

I decided to come back here for a post to update my life, as one of the reason I started this blog was just to record down my life. Back then I did not find a reason yet, but I was thinking everything needs a start! and I randomly started, it's been more than two years I continued doing this, and yet I still can't find a reason and I started questioning whether I should continue, as this blog felt like a goal without an objective(?) or without a reason and direction.

Deep feelings aside, still gonna update my life anyway!

How's life? Busy. As usual.

I was at a point that I feel like I can't pass this semester, a point I felt so helpless and wanted to just give up. That was how busy and tough this semester is, but gladly I think I survived, slowly to finals and ending this semester.

Last tuition free week I did not go home and stayed here in Miri, enjoying life till max. I guess?

This was a morning when I had a meeting with a very inspiring person

went to a one day site visit in Bintulu

alcohol every night to end the day

gym everyday which has a sauna room

Trying to stay healthy and have homecook food when we can.

My housemate is not a fan of meat so mostly are veges.

I am also addicted cutting my bangs it goes shorter and shorter.

I don't like it hanging in front of my eyes, and shorter means I can wait longer for the next time.

I was too naive, forgetting I have curly hair, now I can't even control how my bangs look like LOL.

I did not know when did I start craving for spicy food.

I had been a very good girl that try to eat as plain as possible, as I know I can easily get heated up if I don't control what I eat. This includes having toothache, sore throat, pimple bursting everywhere and also fat ._. as spicy food really do make you eat more.

I don't know how is my stomach condition now, I am not even good at eating spicy food to start with, and my record for the past few weeks was crazy.

All of these are some fancy and spicy meals I had. Other than these, I probably was eating nothing, or having cereal with coffee as breakfast and supper. You can definitely tell my life is messed up by what I was eating.