Canada Hill

Went to Canada Hill like finally!
and it welcomed me with two complete perfect rainbows <3

I always wanted to pay a visit here but didn't have the chance to,

and finally before two days I go back I'm here~!

Its funny how I didn't know I'll be going until five minutes before we reached LOL

I went to the bank earlier this day to run some errands,

and since my friend who sent me lives at the town,

I felt sorry to let him drive me back (which takes 30mins)

so I just asked any of my friend who were at town at that time.

It turned out there's someone at town with a car (Yay!)

They picked me up at Bintang Mall,

and said that they wanted to go to Canada Hill,

of course I said yes I wanted to go!

Its very near, just 5mins and we were there!

Miri.

You can see the whole Miri there,

looks not so nice in the picture but its speechlessly nice up there.

There's a petroluem musuem up there, free entrance,

and also the Grand Old Lady.

Under the Grand Old Lady,

there's a few pictures craved on the wall,

something about the way they get oil back before,

and also some sculpture 'doing work'

Gentlemen helping out

Well someone seemed quite unmoral sitting on the heavy enough thing...

Thanks for the hard work gentlemen

Well just for fun so don't take it too serious k?

We spent some time in the petroluem musuem,

its not that big inside,

and also not much to explore too,

but quite informative(?) only if you spent time reading those boards.

Tunnel thingy.

Lots of me!

Up there was actually something about plasma (?)

It was under maintenance...so I'm not that sure

But hey there were mirrors which means selfie

Say Hi to all Akissss

Earthquake car

A very cool car! ....without doors LOL

This is something about the earthquake,

sit in and press some buttons then it'll start shaking LOL

A corner looking magical.

This was Alvin trying to predict the future

Trying to push the glass...?

Everyone look at the rock. Haha.

This trip/visit/anything-you-call,

random enough but enjoyed to max haha

Thanks for the great ones who went together,

you guys are crazy and so fun to be together haha

And of course thanks for fetching me back home teehee~

Finally!

Finally final finals finals!!!

This is was my very first semester here,
my very first time with the word finals,
can't be more happy and free!

I have to say that this semester was a great one,
I met awesome peoples, I learnt a lot.
And the most satisfying thing is to study more than 10chapters for every subject in about 3months!
This is something I like a lot,
learning a lot of knowledge in a very short time,
and even having finals after that (which means you can forget everything as soon  XD

A few shots after exam,
didn't expected the sky being so blue with fluffy clouds,
actually the other part has no clouds LOL

Hair-flipping shot.

Touching-the-clouds shot,

I actually like this the most <3

I was only sitting for three subject this time (ECS has no finals),
Physics, Engineering Maths and Programming C++,
I'm still not sure how will it turn out,
but finger crossed that my hard work will pay off!

My first finals subject was Programming,
and I had it done quite early,
came out about 20mins earlier,
not that I'm very confident,
but just wanted more time for studying Physics for the next day.

Physics, DISASTER, haha.
I usually did my workings twice,
question sheet and answer sheet.
But just after I had done my first question,
I found out that I spent almost 30mins on it,
which is 1/4 the time of the examination LOL
So I think you can imagine what happened on my answer sheet for the questions left XD

Last one was Engineering Maths,
learnt from the lesson a day earlier,
I started to do all the calculations in my mind for the 10minutes reading time LOL
Glad that I still have time left,
not sure whether how did I do,
but NO THINKING BACK.

Its very important for not thinking back.
For every examination or test I took,
I made sure I DON'T THINK BACK,
not the questions, not the answers,
its the past, move on. Haha.
Only this time for this blogpost I think back a little. Just a little.

So after I finished my finals,
I got an email about me passing an interview.
I was shocked,
as at first I didn't even want to go for the interview,
because I don't have the courage to (?)
I worried a lot and I was so lack of confidence,
glad that I went for it!
Won't tell until the days come haha

As soon as I got home,
I finally bought my tickets for my next journey!!
I kept dragging as I have a lot of things unsure,
I actually had so many things going on and to deal with,
at the same time preparing for finals,
I won't tell all about it,
but I have to say it bothered me a lot,
I had countless of sleepless nights >.<

So today must be counted a very fulfilling day,
everything starts to meet ends,
still a lot that I need to deal,
but at least I can see some progress!!!

I like to see people working hard,
no matter for what or any goals,
and the best thing will be the time when everything slowly comes to what we expected.
幸福就是经过一番努力后，
生活渐渐有了自己想要的样子，嗯。

CAN'T WAIT TO GO HOME!

Aimless

Let's be frank,
we all hate being aimless,
being to not know what to do next.

But something worse than this,
is the moment when you know what you wanna do next,
but you still can't start,
just like me,now.

I have so much things I wanna do,
so many things I wanna start to work hard,
but now I'm stuck here in front of my desk,
studying for my finals,
which should be quite interesting for me as a nerd,
but seriously I was stuck here for more than two weeks,
can't bare more, please end, thanks.

I remembered the days before I came study,
the long gap holiday made me aimless,
its not that I don't wanna go for an adventure or anything,
but the days are not that long but still can't consider short,
that's the most boring days.
Trying to stick on a routine so I won't laze,

Now I have so many things I wanna share,
something I'm planning to share,
but let's face this,
finals is important,
going back to study,
....or sleep.

Escapade

I've never did a food review before,
so this may be the very first post,
because, why not? 6皿6

Today I was actually planning to go for a medical checkup,
but most of Miri's clinics close on Sundays. (wtf?!!)
Since we're already in town,
and we were craving for sushi,
so we went to one of the most recommended Japanese cuisine here at Miri.

ESCAPADE.

Its located by the beach,
so totally amazing view outside,
the environment inside is quite nice,
nice service but the crowd on this weekend spoiled a little.
We only got a bar seat,
but since its just two of us so its okay.

Mini salmon Mayo.

Sashimi here is very nice,you can taste the freshness of it, I can still remember the thickness of this ball of happiness. We actually ordered this two times as it never gets enough!

Cha Soba

Look at that cute little egg! LOL There's three types of soup you can choose from, we chose the regular shoyu taste, and this thing didn't fail me. Slurp it down in seconds!

Gyoza

Gyoza is a must go food every time I go for Japanese cuisine. Well the gyoza here is just okay compared to all those greatness I tried before, ranking at the middle part. Its not that it doesn't taste good but my standards are high XD Still, this fixed my cravings for gyoza so not that much feeling disappointed LOL

View outside the restaurant.

There's quite a wide varieties of food to choose from, all kinds of sushi you can think of. The teishouku here includes those traditional ones and also those modern ones like kimchi flavored ramen. Oh and also they have this anmitsu parfait that I really wanted to try!(which I didn't try LOL) Since its halal so they don't have osake here.

The service here is quite nice as they'll politely ask you to wait although they're dealing with the full house customers. Food came quite fast so this is really a bonus! Price is slightly expensive to the locals (?) but its acceptable and quite similar to the Japanese cuisine back at my hometown. They have a beach beside so its very nice to have a stroll by the beach after that.

I got to try a lot more thanks to my friend who had similar taste of food just like me, as we shared half of everything. Also a great thank you to my small tummy that saved my wallet haha.

Please look forward to my next food review! Hope there is one XD

Accepting myself

Its midnight,
I'm not sleeping,
don't ask why,
but I feel like sharing my story.

This morning,
I thought and realized,
that how much I had changed over these years,
about accepting myself.

To people who knows me,
I'm a light eater,
with a small appetite,
and I'll skip meals just because I'm lazy.

But to people who really knows me,
I have a very good appetite,
I can constantly eat a lot,
and I eat everything and totally not a picky eater.

So all of these started when I was in secondary school (?)

There is always a time that every of us,
will come to a stage that you want to change yourself,
when you realize the word 'beauty',
and you start to take care more of your appearance.

Well for me,
not so same,
at that time I realized how worse I looked.
I can't accept every bits of myself.
Flat nose, crooked teeth, small eyes, high forehead, curly hair that's always messy, a bit bare in the forehead, bad skin condition, pale skin that makes my pimples stand out, too macho broad shoulders, 'broad' face, chubby cheeks.
Nothing seems right.

I will usually go out with oversize shirt,
and....who am I kidding,
I don't usually go out too.
Maybe that was the time I was trying to start to find myself,
starting as an introvert.

I read a lot,
trying to find my inner beauty,
since I think I can't do anything with my outer side (ahaha
I picked up a lot of hobbies,
which becomes the things that I can hold on when I have nothing.
I trained a lot I went gym,
because I think that's the only part that I dislike which I can change.

but it didn't turn out well,
I starve myself eating little, I don't eat dinner,
I constantly worked out an hour at a daily basis,
for more than a year.
but I still remained quite the same,
now although I'm still aiming high,
but I started to accept my flaws,
and not feeling very disgusting in my own self.

One thing I realized is,
self-acceptance is quite important.
As I was leading and organizing events back then,
I need to socialize with all kind of people,
I need to learn to talk with all kinds of people,
and usually I'll be the one to start the conversation.

During camps,
when all of them were new to each other,
I'll need to be the one that's sweet and lovely,
and show everyone the crazy side of me,
to make them feel belonged,
and make them not to feel lost.

This changed me a lot,
from a total introvert,
that can't communicate well even buying things.

I was shocked too.

Now,
although my appearance doesn't change much,
but I started to accept myself,
and also figured out a way to keep on going.

Your attitude,
your way of eating, talking, walking, sitting,
everything matters.
You may be thinking,
'nahh so susah buat pa, I'll just be myself'
Yes, its because that you are the type that can accept yourself.

I believe there's a lot of people like me,
that have a very low self esteem.
Try to work on very little things in life,
and when all the complicated susah work becomes your habit,
you won't even think that's hard to maintain.

Now I am still myself.
Still an introvert,
but just adjustable to a outgoing person.
Maybe I had two sides of me,
the one that's the original,
introvert, enjoy silence and alone.
And the developed outgoing me,
that can socialize and lead.

Although there's still some times,
that I feel I'm nothing I'm useless,
but the important part is that I really changed a lot,
at least I started to accept myself.
And just starting means a lot to me.

Shit

This is my first expression knowing that I was accepted by one of the Korea's projects.Yes,SHIT.

This may be a long story.
One of my life goals(fancy not that fancy =/ ) is to go around countries,
not only to travel, but to stay a period, live their life, know the people.
Before I came here,
I already knew that there is something called AIESEC,
and it really got my interest.
But just when I wanted to sign up,
they membership was closed...
(but at the same time I was really grateful since I got to involve in much more other activities)

So just a few weeks ago,
they started something called Global Citizen,
I was interested but felt like
 'nahhh I don't want to waste RM600 on something risky'
(I was not sure about the chances being accepted by projects)
Also,others told me that
'nahh you will be much more involved once you started degree,chill now'
So I was thinking maybe next time if I am a member,
maybe I'll apply since the chances being accepted may be higher.

Things change.
One night when I went training,
one of my friends mentioned that she's going for one of the project,
and she's not a member of AIESEC.
I asked a lot about it,
and straight at that night had a short conversation with the person in charge on whatsapp.
The next day night,
I got interviewed by the people here.
Less than an hour I was told I passes,
and the next moment I was being interviewed by the people from Taiwan for one of the project.

The very next day,
I got accepted by the Taiwan project (unbelievable right?!!)
Everything came so fast,
I didn't even have the chance to mention it to my parents LOL
Its quite hard to tell them all,
since I was thinking like 'maybe try interview first'
If pass then tell them maybe I'll be going overseas.
But now,I passed everything,just almost in a day 0.o

So I briefly told my parents,
as expected,their reaction was 'GO LAHH'
(too open minded parents here)
They didn't even ask more about details until I mentioned ==

So why did I said Korea earlier?
That's another long story.

Recently I was so into those Korea's vlog,
and just days before I told Zoe, I WANT GO KOREA!
So I told the person in charge here that I was interested in Korea too ._.

He was like
"Korea quite hard to get oo"
"If they didn't reply you in two weeks probably means you are filtered"
"Apply all 15 projects offered by Korea for higher chances"
"Don't have high hope kay?"
So what I did,
we got to choose only 15 projects out from every country worldwide,
I chose all Korea's ._.

and BANG!
I got asked for interview (YAY!)
from four projects (YAYYYY!)
but time arrangement was damn tiring.
Rushing class,training,lab,presentation,assignments and INTERVIEWS.

and Today morning,
got an interview before tutorial class,
(accidentally slept on bus and forgot my purse)
worked on programming project,
rushed home and wanted to work on my presentation slides before going training.
AND I GOT AN EMAIL SAID BEING ACCEPTED TO KOREA.

IS THIS A DREAM?
I immediately screenshot and sent it to the person in charge here to confirm,
and he says yes and a congratz.
(who told me very hard to get == who said no one got interview ==)

Well I think its because of my CV,
I went volunteeered a looooot since high school days,
not because of anything but just because I'm interested,
and until the time I need to fill up my CV,
there's quite a lot to fill especially its something for volunteering or organizing events.
and also I speak a lot of languages (?)
My advice: Be involved.Marks mean nothing.XD (but getting straight A's prove yourself hehe)

Now my very problem is I really want to go to Korea,
since I want to try going somewhere where I don't speak the language,
but suddenly that becomes the only reason!
I mean before this isn't I was dying to go?
Now I can't even come out with reasons to convince myself.
Another difference is that going Taiwan I'll be spending less.
DECISION MAKING IS SO DAMN HARD.
THAT'S WHY.SHIT.
My parents advice? They said MAKE YOUR OWN DECISION. T^T

Life update:
Everything is hectic.
Less then a month and this semester will ends.
Dealing with final individual presentation slides,
Programming project which cracks my head,
Finals so very soon,
Training three times a week now,
Saturday having Taekwondo grading test.
Tomorrow having seminar for exchange program,
Next week will be having second math assessment,
Going lots of interview for exchange programs,
Finding time for a medical checkup to one of the projects,
Owhh life,why I love you so much..




(I'LL BE VERYYYY GRATEFUL IF THERE'S COMMENTS AND ADVICE)
(ANYTHING WILL DO BECAUSE I'M STUCK DECIDING)

My times

Finally,
I went for this movie,
Our Times,
after waiting and controlling not to watch at the cinema for a few weeks,
Yea I gave in and watch it at TGV today LOL.

Well,
I have to say since I'm not from Taiwan,
I can't feel that much from the movie,
and also the script somehow seems 'not true',
a bit 无厘头 a bit childish XD
BUT it does bring back all those beautiful memories.

Although I feel its childish its surreal,
but if you ask me is it nice?
Sure I will say its a must watch~

Although I don't find the guy inside appealing,
when everyone is flailing they hope a 徐太宇 lol

I have to say I'm lucky enough,
during my high school days,
I have a bunch of protective friends,
that spoiled me so bad (teehee

I am quite 'proud' that I was not a good student,
by that doesn't mean by bad grades btw...
I slept in class,I did all the bad things,
and I never regretted doing so XD

I remembered skipping school for the whole week,
after the first week for Form4,
well my parents approved that (overly open-minded parents here haha)
so after that,
when I went back to school at the third week of the study week,
the teachers were like why the hell is there someone I didn't seen before
and I remembered the best feeling I had,
when I handed in my letter (reason about skipping class),
to my class teacher who not yet know me after weeks XD

I had awesome friends too,
we grew up together since its a small kampung with only a secondary school,
the friendship lasts more than 10 years ^皿^
I used to be the most lazy most sleepy most clingy one haha,
but they'll still wait for me between change of classes,
reminding me everything since I have really bad memory,
with them,I felt safe,
although I was the one who keeps kacau others,
they were used to it and will just choose to ignore me XD
but still at times they'll take care of me,
they help me remember things,help me with almost everything,
until now I still can't believe I am now living without them,
I mean they're already part of me,
how can you live without part of yourself?!
Yes they are this important!

About first love,
there's a line in the movie “我们的初恋就是注定输给陶敏敏那样的女生"
我的初恋并没有输给陶敏敏那样的女生，我输给了我自己。嗯。