Year 2 Sem 2. Done.
I woke up with a severe headache this morning, but I can't sleep in as I have an appointment at 8am later. I guess this is the sense for growing up, so painful.
Finishing my last paper was two days ago, but it felt like weeks ago. This two days was crazy hectic, I have to pack my stuffs, but at the same time have to spend time with the people I think is important here in Miri as this will be our last moments before me leaving to Perth.
This semester was treating me so well and I'm so so grateful for the people around me.
Looking back to my previous posts and writings, I can't recall what happened to me last year and everything seems surreal again. Thank you, for letting the life roller coaster ride a huge lift, everything felt just so right.
I remember I started the semester telling myself to treat people friendly and warm, but don't expect anything in return. Maybe the not expecting part helps, the time spent with the people I new met this semester was amazing. It's not like everyday enjoy kinda amazing, just sitting in class and talking like normal makes me feel amazing.
I got to meet a few friends a younger batch than me, and it started by me unable to choose the same class with my old friends, and I randomly chose a tutorial group, brave myself into the class alone and found out I remembered the wrong time and was late for class, randomly sat with some random strangers as we need to be in a group of three for the weekly assessment, and it turns out they are a bunch of amazing human beings.
Thanks for letting me in your group of friends every week, asked me out for volunteering events together, helping me with my studies, sharing notes and back each other up for lab sessions and weekly group assessment. I will miss the times during tutorial and lab sessions where you guys will share your stories for the whole 2/3 hours. I can't be more grateful to know you guys although this might be our first and last semester spent together, hope we can still keep in touch in the future!!
I also met a few seniors that will cares for my studies by keep saying "fail liao lo" and nags me out for study and food, volunteer to fetch me to campus for classes, accompany me to settle my private stuffs, thanks for not letting me doing this alone, thanks for not buying my "no need I can do it myself", it felt so warm and safe to be with someone else.
By knowing more friends means more social, which is still a pain for me haha.
Most of the times I will still refuse to social, still ignoring messages, still not reply and chat, when I was talked to, but thanks for still staying with me despite me being myself all the time.
Thanks for still diedie drags me out for social, its sometimes tiring but I have to admit it feels warm every time.
Knowing new friends at the same time makes me appreciate for those who stays.
Thanks for understanding and treat me just the same. I still enjoy the communicate without words, hanging out without talking, silent moments when being together. Although sometimes I will be the more annoying one especially when we are really close, the kind that I can kacau you but will merajuk when you kacau me back. Still a balance I need to figure out HAHA
TBH quitting all previous positions and responsible that I joined and worked hard, to make myself a better person, and choose to join what I really enjoy, allows me to be myself more.
I learnt to not care that much, I learnt to let go, at the same time I learn to appreciate.
I learnt to be with myself and not hate myself, although sometimes I still can't accept myself, but I am glad for myself by doing what I want.
This sem seems less achieving, but I felt happier. Learning not to care about what other thinks and the social standards, allow me to do things I think is achieving in my own perspective, and this means a lot to me.
I treated this sem as a new start, as last sem I told myself 失去所有又怎样，重新来过就好了，就像刚到这里时那样 <3 and amazingly it works, new friends, new lifestyle, new things to work on and new things to be happy with. Moreover, the old sweet ones still stays, adding value to this new start. If you are one of those who stays by my side after all these years of me being rude and cold, THANK YOU.
I am still learning how to give, still learning how to be nice and good to people around, thanks for being patient with me, I hope one day I will give you lots of love just like how you guys gave me, be there with you when you needed just like how you guys helped me through. By then, I will try my best.
I'm leaving to Perth for a semester, and it makes this amazing start a stop, and I really hope its just a pause. New environment mean more challenges, and I hope I am ready. I hope life treats me great, and I hope I am strong enough to fight my next battle.
See you when I see you then.
I woke up with a severe headache this morning, but I can't sleep in as I have an appointment at 8am later. I guess this is the sense for growing up, so painful.
Finishing my last paper was two days ago, but it felt like weeks ago. This two days was crazy hectic, I have to pack my stuffs, but at the same time have to spend time with the people I think is important here in Miri as this will be our last moments before me leaving to Perth.
This semester was treating me so well and I'm so so grateful for the people around me.
Looking back to my previous posts and writings, I can't recall what happened to me last year and everything seems surreal again. Thank you, for letting the life roller coaster ride a huge lift, everything felt just so right.
I remember I started the semester telling myself to treat people friendly and warm, but don't expect anything in return. Maybe the not expecting part helps, the time spent with the people I new met this semester was amazing. It's not like everyday enjoy kinda amazing, just sitting in class and talking like normal makes me feel amazing.
I got to meet a few friends a younger batch than me, and it started by me unable to choose the same class with my old friends, and I randomly chose a tutorial group, brave myself into the class alone and found out I remembered the wrong time and was late for class, randomly sat with some random strangers as we need to be in a group of three for the weekly assessment, and it turns out they are a bunch of amazing human beings.
Thanks for letting me in your group of friends every week, asked me out for volunteering events together, helping me with my studies, sharing notes and back each other up for lab sessions and weekly group assessment. I will miss the times during tutorial and lab sessions where you guys will share your stories for the whole 2/3 hours. I can't be more grateful to know you guys although this might be our first and last semester spent together, hope we can still keep in touch in the future!!
I also met a few seniors that will cares for my studies by keep saying "fail liao lo" and nags me out for study and food, volunteer to fetch me to campus for classes, accompany me to settle my private stuffs, thanks for not letting me doing this alone, thanks for not buying my "no need I can do it myself", it felt so warm and safe to be with someone else.
By knowing more friends means more social, which is still a pain for me haha.
Most of the times I will still refuse to social, still ignoring messages, still not reply and chat, when I was talked to, but thanks for still staying with me despite me being myself all the time.
Thanks for still diedie drags me out for social, its sometimes tiring but I have to admit it feels warm every time.
Knowing new friends at the same time makes me appreciate for those who stays.
Thanks for understanding and treat me just the same. I still enjoy the communicate without words, hanging out without talking, silent moments when being together. Although sometimes I will be the more annoying one especially when we are really close, the kind that I can kacau you but will merajuk when you kacau me back. Still a balance I need to figure out HAHA
TBH quitting all previous positions and responsible that I joined and worked hard, to make myself a better person, and choose to join what I really enjoy, allows me to be myself more.
I learnt to not care that much, I learnt to let go, at the same time I learn to appreciate.
I learnt to be with myself and not hate myself, although sometimes I still can't accept myself, but I am glad for myself by doing what I want.
This sem seems less achieving, but I felt happier. Learning not to care about what other thinks and the social standards, allow me to do things I think is achieving in my own perspective, and this means a lot to me.
I treated this sem as a new start, as last sem I told myself 失去所有又怎样，重新来过就好了，就像刚到这里时那样 <3 and amazingly it works, new friends, new lifestyle, new things to work on and new things to be happy with. Moreover, the old sweet ones still stays, adding value to this new start. If you are one of those who stays by my side after all these years of me being rude and cold, THANK YOU.
I am still learning how to give, still learning how to be nice and good to people around, thanks for being patient with me, I hope one day I will give you lots of love just like how you guys gave me, be there with you when you needed just like how you guys helped me through. By then, I will try my best.
I'm leaving to Perth for a semester, and it makes this amazing start a stop, and I really hope its just a pause. New environment mean more challenges, and I hope I am ready. I hope life treats me great, and I hope I am strong enough to fight my next battle.
See you when I see you then.
