I missed my flight.
This is not the first time me having problems while flying.
I bought the wrong ticket after checking several times,
I last minute found out having a wrong date for my return flight after checking a few times too,
I forgot my passport while flying back,
I brought 30kgs luggage and realise I only have 15kg to check in,
what else... flying around is a nightmare for me, nothing is right,
that is probably why sometimes I am very stress when having to fly alone,
I check everything again and again but probably the stress overcome me most of the time,
things still always go wrong, just like today.
I was sitting at the opposite of the boarding gate,
right after I touched down, waiting for my time to get in,
I was looking at the time every 5mins,
and was staring at the gate for 15mins (probably at the time I have to get in),
I didn't know what is wrong with me,
I just didn't process everything with my brain somehow,
until gate closed.
I walked to the gate, seeing the door starting to get passengers from the other flight,
and getting rejected to get on the flight, seeing it still in front of me,
started panicked and called dad and mentally collapsed several times in a very short time.
I tried to get myself together for a few times a failed to can't stop crying all the way,
from in front of the gate, until I walked my way out of the arrival hall to the departure hall,
asked at the flight counter and bought another ticket,
I called dad and he did not did not scold me (although he did later),
asking me to stop feeling sorry and find a solution instead,
Zoe also saying that she will be coming over later after work as tmr is a holiday,
making me at least having something to look forward.
It's now four hours since I missed my flight,
sitting in a coffee shop waiting time to pass by,
with a lot of wantans produced in front of all the workers,
can't stop tearing thinking what happened today,
being very tired at the same time grateful.
I woke up at 7am today,
still being sick since the past few days,
did not have a charged power bank,
but an overweight baggage I still need to settle,
what's more tired than this.
But what makes me cry-stop non stop,
is dad worrying me at the same time asking me to learn my lesson without scolding me,
Zoe trying to tell me worse story to make my life better lol,
and coming over to spend a few hours through the night,
and VVP promise me to wake up early for me and fetch me at the airport (she better do),
to make me look less kelian (although I kinda forced her to, saying I am alrdy very kelian lol).
This is already not the first time this happened,
calling my dad crying that I need to buy a new flight tickets happened before,
everything happened today was just the same few years ago when I bought the wrong date,
and I am quite disappointed in myself for not learning my lesson,
and did not grow even a little in these few years,
just a little more kiamsiap and willing to wait a little longer for a cheaper tix,
very disappointing.
I hope this teaches me to grow up,
to be more alert,
to be more responsible,
and earn more money (so I can just missed all dem flights),
be more energetic handling things,
stop being always tired,
be someone I always want myself to.
I hope one day,
future me,
you are all grown up like dad and Zoe,
being able to calmly handling all your shits,
or let's hope there will be no shits in your life =)
To those who are very sad,
very negative mentally currently,
I hope things will get better,
everything will be over one day,
and good things will come once the bad once are over.
This is not the first time me having problems while flying.
I bought the wrong ticket after checking several times,
I last minute found out having a wrong date for my return flight after checking a few times too,
I forgot my passport while flying back,
I brought 30kgs luggage and realise I only have 15kg to check in,
what else... flying around is a nightmare for me, nothing is right,
that is probably why sometimes I am very stress when having to fly alone,
I check everything again and again but probably the stress overcome me most of the time,
things still always go wrong, just like today.
I was sitting at the opposite of the boarding gate,
right after I touched down, waiting for my time to get in,
I was looking at the time every 5mins,
and was staring at the gate for 15mins (probably at the time I have to get in),
I didn't know what is wrong with me,
I just didn't process everything with my brain somehow,
until gate closed.
I walked to the gate, seeing the door starting to get passengers from the other flight,
and getting rejected to get on the flight, seeing it still in front of me,
started panicked and called dad and mentally collapsed several times in a very short time.
I tried to get myself together for a few times a failed to can't stop crying all the way,
from in front of the gate, until I walked my way out of the arrival hall to the departure hall,
asked at the flight counter and bought another ticket,
I called dad and he did not did not scold me (although he did later),
asking me to stop feeling sorry and find a solution instead,
Zoe also saying that she will be coming over later after work as tmr is a holiday,
making me at least having something to look forward.
It's now four hours since I missed my flight,
sitting in a coffee shop waiting time to pass by,
with a lot of wantans produced in front of all the workers,
can't stop tearing thinking what happened today,
being very tired at the same time grateful.
I woke up at 7am today,
still being sick since the past few days,
did not have a charged power bank,
but an overweight baggage I still need to settle,
what's more tired than this.
But what makes me cry-stop non stop,
is dad worrying me at the same time asking me to learn my lesson without scolding me,
Zoe trying to tell me worse story to make my life better lol,
and coming over to spend a few hours through the night,
and VVP promise me to wake up early for me and fetch me at the airport (she better do),
to make me look less kelian (although I kinda forced her to, saying I am alrdy very kelian lol).
This is already not the first time this happened,
calling my dad crying that I need to buy a new flight tickets happened before,
everything happened today was just the same few years ago when I bought the wrong date,
and I am quite disappointed in myself for not learning my lesson,
and did not grow even a little in these few years,
just a little more kiamsiap and willing to wait a little longer for a cheaper tix,
very disappointing.
I hope this teaches me to grow up,
to be more alert,
to be more responsible,
and earn more money (so I can just missed all dem flights),
be more energetic handling things,
stop being always tired,
be someone I always want myself to.
I hope one day,
future me,
you are all grown up like dad and Zoe,
being able to calmly handling all your shits,
or let's hope there will be no shits in your life =)
To those who are very sad,
very negative mentally currently,
I hope things will get better,
everything will be over one day,
and good things will come once the bad once are over.
