It feels more like the annual trip to Bintulu LOL
Three years here in Sarawak, the place I went other than Miri and Brunei is Bintulu, and suprisingly I'm visiting it annually.
This trip was random. Crazily random.
I went with V, which I think we just got close for two weeks(?) and here comes our first trip. Life is amazing huhh.
Thank you for this random trip, a rest much needed. Especially got more motivation to move on with this dull life, with a weekend full of babies and good food.
It was her niece's one year old birthday and her hometown is in Bintulu so she have to travel all the way back there and her mum was quite worried for her to travel alone. I know sometimes it sucks to have a long bus ride alone too. Me being myself enjoy long rides and random trip, so without even thinking I followed her to Bintulu HAHA
I did not even have time to pack the night before, and only on that morning I tried to squeeze everything into my backpack. I am very proud of my packing skills.
That day we had a almost 4 hour bus ride to Bintulu, which we kinda eat and watch videos all the way, and I slept through the ride LOL
I was the one mostly sleepinggg
Her cousin picked us up at the bus terminal and I really have to say in this three years, Bintulu really did developed a lot, they have a nice bus terminal now with air conditioned waiting area.
We then went to her cousin's house and here three babies welcomed me. Paradise.
We rest for a while, showered, changed and went to the dinner venue. She met her family members, and me keep staying by her side,weirdly not feeling awkward. I just simply love the vibes of their family that everyone is so welcoming I felt like home!
Thinking in another way, it's another way to experience the local life here I guess. Finally having the chance after been there three times HAHA
Babies just love me huhhh XD
That night I really did enjoy a lot of good food. Not to forget the cheese tart, I won't tell you I had eight of them (it's small okayyy)
Baby Yona turns ONE!
Birthday set up
cake for the day
the extremely yummy mini cheese tarts
Us with the highlight of the day
That night we slept at her aunt's place, we had a great talk with her aunt and cousin, it just feels right. I brought my computer and tried to study, it did not work, we ended up watching a movie, and felt asleep halfway LOL
Slept tgt in a newlywed room lol
The next morning we had an early breakfast, with amazingly good local food and went back to Miri.
Bintulu local breakkie is loooove
Way back home was full of eating and sleeping too
It was a short and sweet trip. A highlight of this dull semester. Thanks for the babies, and the good food. Till we meet again!!
I saw this quote online last year and instead of just screenshotting it, I wrote it down on my notebook, and hoping things will get better. I remember I was so lost at that time and just writing this down, I wet the whole page with tears because it really do hurts a lot that time.
Just right after I posted my last post, like a miracle, I felt things started to fall into place. I got an exchange offer after being rejected, celebrated our achievement for IGV department we worked for last summer, followed by a new government for my country. Things starting to feel right, I met someone who makes me feel belonged too, when I feel so lost and alone everyday. Someone that stops me from hiding in my house my room everyday. I hope this lasts long. Exchange?
Going to Perth for exchange is always my dream? I never tell anyone because I felt its something so far away and something that is almost impossible to achieve. You can tell I never tell my goals here but only sharing when its achieved most of the time. This place is somewhere I show my positive happy things, and for all the BloodSweatTears, it goes to my diary, sometimes my notebook.
Because this time, I felt like its an achievement after so long, I really want to share the whole journey.
It started when I know I won't want to study in Perth as I don't want to spend that much money just to study abroad when I can do the same here and getting the same certificate in the end. I was hoping to get a scholarship for my final years to study there, but then let's be real, the chances are rare, and if I get any chance, I will of couse grab it.
It was last year when I was in Year1Sem2 when I saw about this exchange program, but one of the requirement to apply is being at least a second year student. That time I was a bit down for not meeting the requirements, but at the same time I was thinking "Hey! Let's apply this next semester then!"
Things did not go very well as they did not open for application for the next semester when I was is Year2Sem1 and since the exchange program started just for a semester, I was thinking maybe they cancelled the program as things may not be going well. I was a little down for that, but I cheered myself up thinking maybe this program is open once every year. Trying to be postive LOL
I remembered I listed exchange as my goal when I felt lost last year and trying to pick myself up. I was planning to apply for the program in Daegu, I was planning to go for Olympics, I was planning to go for this exchange (although that time I was not even sure whether this program is still going on).
It felt so achieving, ticking off goals. Done my project in Daegu, attended Winter Olympics and now, I got the exchange opportunity!!! It felt just like a dream.
This was what I wrote when I found out the exchange program was still going on earlier this semester. I know the chances might be very low, and when I went to get the form from the officer, she told me the quota for engineering students is very limited, and it is hard to get the place. As I always think that me being active in clubs and activities will be a bonus for my application, the only thing they asked from me, is my Academic Transcript. EVERYTHING BASED ON MY ACADEMIC. aka lower chance XD Although my results are not really bad, quite good, but I'm not the very top students that gets into the VClist.
That time, I was lost, I still feel I was back behind and I was not feeling positive for this. Picking myself up step by step was not easy, it was hard, but little by little, and submitting the application form is one of the steps.
This was written during the beginning of the semester. "Things I want to work hard on." The first two was a little private, but I did listed exchange as the 4th important things I want to work on, although that time I had totally no idea how to do it.
I did not get the offer straight away. I got rejected once. That time I was quite down for that, but this is life, things will not always be like what we hope for. There are good times, and of course the bad ones. 50/50. Bad ones make us look forward to the good ones, and sometimes make the good ones even more precious. Just like this time =)
I remember it was an afternoon when I went out for lunch with some of my friends. I was squeezing in the car when I got a call from the officer asking me whether I am still interested in the exchange program. I immediately say YES YES and trying my best to sound as cool as I can but seriously in my mind in my heart it was a huge mess. Could not contain my excitement, I immediately confirmed with my dad, and him being as supportive as always, encouraged me to go for this opportunity.
That night, I got home and sat in front of my desk, and let the reality settled in. I could not hold back but shed happy tears as this is really what I longed and hoped for. Tbh I was really down this semester as there are really a lot of people that makes me feel I am not important. I was always left out and I wonder is it because I am not good enough to be with. I might not be the kind that always study but I know when to have fun and when to be serious. I am questioning myself whether I should change my way, to be accepted. Maybe when we are growing and the academics goes harder, people just want to stay with those who kept studying and scoring, instead of someone who is a little laid back. It was a hard choice for me, as I know how much I was stressed out before this and I don't want this to repeat, but then if I don't change, people just won't accept me and I hate the feeling being alone and left out.
This is still something I need to sort out, and it is still something I need to find a balance, but this opportunity, it really helped me to gain back a little of my confidence, a little of assurance that my way of living and treating study is not wrong. So thank you, for this approvment.
I know there are still a lot of things to settle, and a lot of things to prepare myself for this journey. I know it won't be easy and I might fail even more, but I think and I hope that I am ready.
There are still so many uncertainties, that I still don't dare to share the news to my friends so if you are reading this, you are the first few to know XD
IGV Celebration
We celebrated as IGV got to be the most contributing for the Miri community development for last year. It was a little unexpected and it was another assurance after working as a Project Director for Speak Up! Did not regret joining AIESEC or working as an IGV member all way long. This dinner makes me felt like home again, and without all those heavy responsibility and deadlines, it was even really a great talk and a great meal.
We went for the sunset and beach while waiting for our food.
My boss.
We really did had a great meal, belanja by AIESEC =))))
That night I came back for the election results, and went to sleep halfway when we almost won. Woke up to a public holiday and my class all canceled after I got ready, I went back to sleep and woke up to another email saying NO HOLIDAY. I then went all the way to the campus for a one hour tutorial class, which ended up the lecturer did not come. LOL.
Got home to my comfy place. Hello new government.
We did our choice. Now let's hope there will be a better future.
If you are feeling lost. I hope this post can cheer you up. Things will eventually get better. Just like how mine did. This is to the past and future me too.
Ending this post with one of my favorite song when I was lost, and my favorite now too as it just makes sense. SAZANKA.
HA. HA.
It's halfway, almost an end and here's my first post of the semester, I'm not sorry, and am hoping for more coming ones in this semester. Hopefully.
This semester was all chill, I had more time for myself which is not that right coz I'm too chill ... but in another way, I think it's good to try to give myself some time, and it turns out not bad. It felt like 'working' for myself other than for someone else.
Things I noticed: I can never be a freelancer. My self discipline is so bad, I can never finish the things I want on time, procrastinating is my best skill and realize I'm more to a follow-the-schedule person. Another thing I noticed: It is okay to be weak, it is okay to show or tell your weakness, but too much is not good. Everyone faces it. So do I, and I believe so do you!
I thought this semester was all gloomy. I THOUGHT.
Until I went through my album for the past few weeks, and it's actually great! Then I realize I'm not living to the sentence I wrote on this blog---Appreciate the little things in life.
Pictures tell stories, and I realize there are so many happy moments in the past few months.
I started this blog, for no reason, and I simple want to record moments. Although I can't find a reason, I still chose to just do it, and you'll find it out.
Okay. Updates.
Curtin Malaysia Biggest Loser
Lose weight program. I lost only 2kg, which I can easily gain back after a good meal =] Considered not very successful, but I made great memories.
Guess what? As we got in by teams, we actually got the last place in one of the weeks, literally biggest loser. No regrets.
No kidding but I seriously work out a lot and eat clean. It was a struggle both mentally and physically. During this six weeks journey I tried to exercise at a daily basis, and it actually felts great, but it is also a hard task to maintain after that six weeks LOL I now do workout but no more daily ._.
I am glad I did not give up halfway, and worked all the way till the last week. Lose weight is a long journey, I felt it more LOL Given this body that can never slim down. Sigh.
From thick to thin HAHA
I started cooking!
I always think one of my weakness is I'm not good at cooking. I still can't understand why do people want to spend so many time cooking a meal which may not turn out good, when there are so many yummy ones out there ready for you.
My ex-housemate Maisei actually made me starting this journey, she told me you'll feel accomplished after cooking a great meal. Another reason is that I was at this losing weight journey so I tried not to eat out as much as I can.
I literally cut down all fast food, no ice drinks, no desserts and only healthy food.
Here's a collage of the healthy diet food I prepared. Which does not taste very good LOL Because I am a bad cook? but I am glad I tried, and really did feel accomplished.
I got on Curtin's website
Can this consider an accomplishment? Because I feel it does, although I look extremely ugly here.
I was on the first page of the website mannn!! Don't wanna lie this felt great XD
Byin's graduation
Jacline and I attended Byin's convocation. We were a team when we were in AIESEC for SpeakUp.
It felt amazing seeing my seniors graduating, starting their working life. She is now working in Singapore and I just feel so great that hard works really do pay off.
Can't wait to graduate soon!!!
Birthday! 21.
I turned 21 on 14th April.
I always say I got no friends because I really don't.
It was just on time, that I got to have my own event on this very special day. It felt like nothing can be more meaningful than this.
Me being myself, wanted to go to the casino when I am 21, although I went into once in Macau XD
I got no birthday cake and no celebration I kinda slept the whole day after my event LOL
My lovely ex-housemate actually got me two cakes just a few minutes before 12am and we chatted for a while, and it taught me to appreciate this little moments more <3 It ended up she had to rush back home to return her car and I finished two cakes on that night LOL Sad life. At least there's cake =]
I started planting flowers
I was planning to bring back some greens to put in my room (the kind that you soak in water and it grows) and mom makes me brings flowers too.
I love flowers. Tell me which girl on Earth doesn't!
I know it isn't hard to grow them, especially this two kinds I brought back, but I did not expect it to bloom almost everyday!
It makes me feel happy seeing new flowers blooming everyday, and because there are a few shades of them it makes me look forward what kind of color combination I will get for the day!
My babies <3
Community Service Video!
This is a little thing I felt great of. We have this MPU unit which need a video presentation and I got to edit the video! I did not spend a lot of time editing it and I feel proud HAHA
It felt more like a vlog tho, and I love filming and editing vlogs. Which I then realize I can't be a good vlogger because I always ended up not filming things, and being an introvert myself my thoughts just belongs to my mind and I never speak them out LOL
Do check it out here if you're interested!! We did a car wash and visited the old folks home!
I look forward to myself for updating more. Please do so too!
