Firstly, I have to apologize for not updating for more than two weeks. Life's a mess with too much highs too much lows that I can't really handle. So here's a picture of me acting cute. Yay.
I know the title of this blogpost sounds like a joke but hmmmm... it really is XD (for me)
I'd never imagined myself involved in this kind of competition as ... I don't see the point of it as a person that don't have the looks LOL
Thanks for the person who signed me up, as this is really doing something I've never imagined, stepping out of my comfort zone A LOT, and through this I felt all the love people are giving me.
Me being very kiamsiap will tell people no need to spend and vote for me as I won't do that too, still I have people supporting me, I really hope I can thank everyone one by one.
I really have to say
I know the title of this blogpost sounds like a joke but hmmmm... it really is XD (for me)
I'd never imagined myself involved in this kind of competition as ... I don't see the point of it as a person that don't have the looks LOL
Thanks for the person who signed me up, as this is really doing something I've never imagined, stepping out of my comfort zone A LOT, and through this I felt all the love people are giving me.
Me being very kiamsiap will tell people no need to spend and vote for me as I won't do that too, still I have people supporting me, I really hope I can thank everyone one by one.
I really have to say
WHAT ON EARTH DO I DESERVE ALL THIS LOVE!!!
When I told my mum I would be joining, I started as "I tell you a joke and promise me you won't laugh...." Well of course we laughed our abs out after that ._.
A week ago, I still can't find the reason to join. Just imagining myself on stage, showing all my flaws, performing something that came out last minute and unprepared, I don't feel like doing it anymore and felt like back off. Being afraid doing something wrong on stage and people laughing GAHHH I would rather choose to dig a hole and burry myself.
When I told be all of the things above, I asked for her thoughts, as she always is the person that being very straightforward to me, and I won't feel hurt LOL
She told me that even if I do something wrong, people down there don't even know me, She knows that I am always lacking confidence, she knows that I have really low self-esteem, she told me to believe in myself, as confidence is beauty. (yepp the story I told on stage was true.)
Overall I had an amazzzzzing day dolling up, having people to do my make up, people sponsoring clothes, wearing high heels walking that catwalk on stage, doing all those cool and funny poses, being the spotlight of the day WOO!
It was raining and pouring on that day, and the crew did all their best to keep us dry and clean, sacrificing themselves soaking under the rain. Again, what on earth do I deserve this!!!
A bit of the regret is I don't have the chance to run around like what I did last year.
We AIESEC have our own booth and the activities were my ideas, and I did not have the chance to see it execute!!! gahhhhh.
Seeing videos of the Open Day makes me felt how much fun I lost LOL Coz the competition is running through the whole day, and I need to be there whole time.
Anyway, I have to say I have totally no regrets joining, tonnes of fun, not in a crazy-run-the-whole-campus fun, but dolling-up-act-elegant fun XD
Sharing a few pics from that day, realizing how much fats I gained and really should start to do something. I am really not in my best condition as I'm dealing with things that is not under my control, and was neglecting a lot of things.
Hoping things will turn well and believe that I'm able to strive through it. Jiayou.
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